the unkn0wn, unheard & unseen

2007-05-24T07:50:00.000-07:00

i took the test on francesca's blog.
very interesting.
its worth taking.somehow. i guess.

2007-05-23T06:27:00.000-07:00

i am ichban.

i am sushi-san.

he like teriyaki;

i like wu don.

lol, the advertisement on the radio.
ahhaha.that's like funnae. the way the say it.

today ms tan asked us to write reflections.
she asked how i wanted physics to be taught.
i said i had no idea, im not phy teacher anw.
gees.i mean, whats the point?! not like she'll change her teaching style because we didnt really like it that way or something.
anyway, she's nice, but her teaching skills still needs alot of improvement, i reckon.

e l i n a .
s i g n i n g o f f .

2007-05-22T05:32:00.000-07:00

2007-05-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

i have been blogging alot too, just like zhaozhi.
lol.
i realised i hate many things. that's a bad sign.
i hate:
-people to block my way
-ignorance
-being ignored
-waiting for people
-tomato
-fish
-seafood
-shellfish (eeeeeewww)
-geography
-social studies
-HUMANITIES IN GENERAL
-flu virus

damn, valerie lim got chicken pox.
bad timing.
aaaaahhahahaha.i got it when i was super young.
thats cool.
can i get chicken pox again?! then i can skip school, stay at home and eat eat eat.
sleep sleep sleep, relax.

everything frustrates me now.
uh oh.
im lacking in enthusiasm, practically for everything.

2007-05-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

yes!
lit is done!
to kill a mocking bird is like tough man!
i was lucky i took geog :]

2007-05-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

ex classmate:you went woodlands library today right?
me:er.i was at home the whole day.
ex classmate:oh.oh.
me: yah,ahhahaha,you saw the wrong person.

that was funny.
like, i saw you there and there,then the person.
NO? i didnt even go out.
then you -.- oh, i have such bad eyesight.

ahahaha.
imagine this happens.
someone: you went to escape today right?
me: ahhaha.what did you see me doing?
someone: i saw you laughing with this very tall girl.
me:oh oh! what was i wearing then?
someone: this tight hugging pink shirt and hot pink mini skirt!
me:oh, pink happen to be my most hated colour.
someone: oh? then why were you wearing it?
me: ahhahaha, i was at home all day.
someone: huh!!!?!!!??? oh my gosh!
me: ahhahaa! you need new spectacles! bad bad eyesight.
someone: WALAO! then why you didnt tell me immediately?
me: then no fun already what.
someone: see me malu very fun right?!
me: yes yes yes.

the end.

lol.

;D

somehow, i seem to be trouble free.

2007-05-19T02:18:00.000-07:00

the exams are over.
i seem to have alot of time on my hand now.
feeling frustrated now.
i got a blog, to rant everything there.
its just not appropriate to defame ppl here.
or vent my frustrations for my fellow friends?! to see.
lol.
frankly, the mid years was quite smooth sailing for me though.
hopefully, all exams will always be a bed of roses for me.
ahhaha.
my mother is going to pay for all my movie trips during the holidays.
to reward me?!
gees.thats sounds like a good deal to me.

2007-05-18T18:07:00.001-07:00

You Are 86% Feminist

You are a total feminist. This doesn't mean you're a man hater (in fact, you may be a man).

You just think that men and women should be treated equally. It's a simple idea but somehow complicated for the world to put into action.

Are You a Feminist?

woah,im a man hater.
wth!
okay, this is the severely sexist here.
valeriel computer crashed.
her com has never been able to view blogger ever since, er, last year.
at least i think so.
thats what she said.

2007-05-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

dammit,my mother is scolding my sister.
she failed her english.
she was saying what english fail then must stay back.
0.o
she forces me to coach her.
=.=
im so fine with it.
she worries me.
but aiyo, im so tired.

ohwells.
im staying outta it.
dont want to get myself into any dirty shit.

2007-05-14T07:00:00.000-07:00

im crazy.
yes i am.

sadistic.
insane.

pysco killer.

KILL KILL KILL!!!!!!!!

wahahahahaha!

crazily crazy.

thank you.

2007-05-14T03:45:00.000-07:00

i cant stand it anymore, i need to RANT!

I HATE THE IGNORANCE THAT MAKES ME LOOK LIKE A FOOL.

I HATE THAT IGNORANCE THAT MAKE ME FEEL SO WEIRD WHEN THINGS HAPPEN.

I REALLY HATE THE FRIGGING IGNORANCE THAT MAKES ME LOOK DUMB WHENEVER CERTAIN THINGS HAPPEN!

JUST HATE IT.

OH WELLS.

TYPING IN CAPS IS A BAD THING.

there.

i really hate being ignorant.
they say ignorance is bliss.
but izzit realleh bliss?! huh?!
NO!
durh!NO WAY MAN!
frigging ignorant!

i hate being ignorant!

2007-05-13T01:22:00.000-07:00

whats with the blogger?!
ahhaha.i am so fascinated with s.h.e the china language.
lol, 中国话。
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上

伦敦玛莉莲买了件旗袍送妈妈
莫斯科的夫司基爱上牛肉面疙瘩各
种颜色的皮肤各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话

多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄(仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人好优美的中国话

扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
板凳不让扁担绑在板凳上
扁担偏要绑在板凳上
板凳偏偏不让扁担绑在那板凳上
到底扁担宽还是板凳长

哥哥弟弟坡前坐
坡上卧著一只鹅
坡下流著一条河
哥哥说宽宽的河
弟弟说白白的鹅
鹅要过河河要渡鹅
不知是那鹅过河
还是河渡鹅

全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话

cool.
fast!
power.
super FAST!
like durh!

going ah ma house to be a filial grand daughter like val lim.
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL, who they they are mothers.
yes.

THE SEVERELY SEXIST!

2007-05-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

its hot. so hot.

BLOGGER seem to be experiencing problems.
i wanted to blog ytd, but i was busy adding ppl into my new email's contact list.
damn, is there a faster way rather than to enter the emails one by one?
i am damn noob, i Ctrl+c then Ctrl+V
dont know how many contacts i got in there, but i did it man.
i did that for many maneh times.
what a noob.

ytd, valerie and i went to bishan's LJS.
uh huh, like zz said, its a custom.
but she had to go be a filial GRANDAUGHTER, so she had to leave at 5.
=.= she loves her ah ma so much ;/
not that i dont. ahhahaha.
the custom must not be broken, so we went and waited for a very long time before we got a seat.
WALAU! the man pa jiao one, we came first then he allowed the 4 friends to enter first.
just becos we only had 2 person?!
!!!!!!!
SUDDENLY! as we were eating?! we saw~!!!! ZHAOZHI AND YINGZHI.
lolololol.
slightly retarded today, kinda like unifrom retardation of 10braincells/second.

will chinese affect the words?!
try try try.
我可以陪你去看猩猩
不用再多唠叨
我就要和你吃香蕉
我不想
又再一次和你挨饿
我多么想每一次的失败
是因为你
（不是我）ops!

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

-sneezes-
bleh, so hot, yet i still kena the flu virus.
wahahahahahhhchoooohahahaha
stupuid blogger, i cant bold the ahchoo.

maniac and retarded celina figured sth out.
obstacles are inevitable, yet every one is yet another learning point.
yes yes yes yes yes ahhhh yes yes chhooooo YES!

oh ya, i case i noobie, forget to add anyone, my handphone number is as follows:
celinac_h@hotmail.com
somehow, it became like that.
celinac@hotmail.com cannot.
celinach@hotmail.com also unavailable.
so i used celinac_h@hotmail.com
ch is half of celina's poodle's surname.

oh yah, the bishan thingy.
then we saw zz, then we saw xinyu, then!!!
we saw, wait.-takes a DEEEEEP breath-
damn, ignorance caused me to be a noobie.
oh no, back to the topic.
we saw...
ELIZ GRACIE VALT HUITING JOLEEN
thats all, wonder why i took such a deep breath.
nine of us went to take neoprints?
all nine squeeze like spoongebob?
scream scream, shriek shriek, valerie lim lor.
always got weirdo expression cos always last minute then dash in, squeeeze squeeze me.
then they go watch movie.
zz,yingzhi, valerie and poodle when window shopping.
nono, presnt shopping.
i bought steph and valt present.
oh gosh, the HUMONGOUS, HUMONGUS?! STITCH LOOKED SO CUTE~
ITS BIG, CUDDLEY AND EVERYTHING ELSE~
LILO AND STITCH.
stitch!!!
its grandpa stitch, so big, maybe almost the size of me.
thats bad, if i ever buy it home, it'll probably occupy 95% of my bed, then i kena kicked down the bed.
its better for it to stay in the shop then.

gees, i am so gonna fail history.
i see the pic wrongly.
damn, asssertion also fail.
my time has come. oh no, i have left no will.
what do i have anyway?! small mini stitch.
up for grasp.

emaths is tough man!
dammit, why do they like to torture our brain cells?!
imagine.
that has caused me to retard at 10braincells/sec.
imagine zz's retardation.
1700braincells/sec.
oh my gosh.
what would she be left with?!
a pink thing.
ohhhh nnoooo~

james: shes gone mad
uh uh. im so not
ST: All your posts are so full of hatred... -.-
they are?! im honoured.
actually not hatred lah. its just stupidity in me.
huiting: aiyo.
huiting ah, u aiyo what?!
Zhaozhi: lol. who cursed what?
Zhaozhi: wadsup?
me cursed me.
serious retardation! save me zz!
jiamin: LOL at march 31st post. wth!
like it?!
lol!
Zhaozhi: lol.cheers.
CHEERS TO YOU TOO.
ps: dont let that sb affect your mood okay?!
valt: ooh. the skin is cute... nice! xD
lol, just like you! ahhahaha.
cesca: i know you'll love it ;D
cesca: www.abcdefg.blogspot.com
eh?! francesca's favourite site!
i hate that site man. its twit twit and twit.
we know you love it more > <
-leegek: BLEAH! haha.
BLEAUGH! WAHAHAH.=.=
huiting: nice skin
yours aint that bad either eh?

its just pure coincidence?
or just mere imagination?!
its both i guess.

stupid msn messenger doesnt even work.
in training.
whatever i download just fails me more.
ohwells.

signing off,
the still severely sexist.

2007-05-08T23:32:00.000-07:00

eh? stupid blogger.
its all in one row, the icons.
boo.
after all those terrifying papers, i figured i am now stress free.
not that phy is not impt, but, boo, i need to rest!
我可以陪你去看星星。hah.
nice nice; very nice.
=.=
blabber mouth.
hyper active fingers.
-.-
stupid brain.
the shittest paper so far is HISTORY?
i MUST be a historian next time, since i study history.
history kinda feels weird.
like, woah, yes yes yes, i know world war1 started on 4aug.
or whenever.
yes yes yes, DURH! i know who the peabrain is hitler.
YES YES YES, I KNOW WHO TEACHES ME HISTORY, I KNOW SHE IS AN ENGLISH TEACHER.
YES! I STUDY HISTORY.
=.=
-DISGUST-

history, rocks, like TOE~TALLY~!!!!

2007-04-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

i cursed my carelessness,recklessness, immense stupidity, extreme moronity, inability to appreciate others' intentions.

I CURSED.
SO GREATLY.

i cursed my laziness, i cursed my morbid obsession with thinking that the unreachable is always the best, when the best is just a pinky away.

the english language is a beautiful thing.
what shallowness.

today i cursed myself for cursing my discipline, self-control and sheer perserverence.
thank you;

2007-04-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

we're all just liars and suckers.
hey i suck, you suck too~! -.-

woah woah woah, so vulgar.
a moment of piss-ness.

another issue;
i dont know if you mean it but i take it as you did, so dont feel sorry for anyone.
jus stay far far away, or i'll become severly SEXIST and maybe a muron.
moron sounds too.er.

bye;the severely sexist.
the gender discrimination in me is resurfacing.
do i blame myself;
i dont.

2007-04-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

i am keeping myself inspired.
i changed my cursor to a money faced smiley.
INSPIRED to love $$$ as much as valerie.

inspired by money ;D

2007-04-13T08:00:00.000-07:00

WA LAU EH.
not that i wanna start the post with such a negative attitude, but i just feel that nothing seem to be falling into place recently.
i saw zhaozhi''s blog, set me thinking.
so much so much.
and its mentally taxing to keep thinking about it.

last year was the best year,
but this year shouldnt be that bad, but it didnt start of well.
in fact, it was rocky and rough.
now, things are getting worst and those things i used to think were securely in place, they seem to have found the KEY to their chains, and slowly, they are unlocking themselves and escaping.
slowly, bit by bit, bitterly, and SOURLY, and painfully.
slow is the bitter and pain.
pain seem to be the wrong word man.
words are failing me.

damn, i keep telling myself its not that bad, but when i start comparing, i just cant help it but to sulk and regret nt treausing last year.
205 vs 304.
damn, its not easy to adapt.
its a huge jump.
from such a nice class to a class where everyone's charcter is so different from mine.
and i simply find it so hard to fit into the class spirit.
just when everyone seem to be coping well, here i am just wallowing in self-pity.
damn, stupid celina, wake up and stop your stupid imaginations from runnning severely wild.
i tell myself i will try to contribute and give it some feelings, but just cant bring myself to do it when the time comes, its simply not easy.

people say its easy to adapt.
but maybe its because i refuse to adapt; and i just give the excuse i cant adapt.
so its me, the problem lies with my REFUSAL to accept and forget.
yes yes yes, its my refusal.
YES YES YES, ITS MY STUBBORNESS.
YES YES YES, ITS MY OBSESSION.
YES YES YES, ITS ME WHO HAS REMAINED THE SAME,WHEN EVERYONE ELSE IS CHANGING TO ADAPT.
YES,ITS me.

yes, its me, i will try, but i still wanna say, i refuse, not because i cant.
i simply reufse.
until i find reasons for me to change and accept, my stand remains, i reufse, not because i cant.

refusal is the root of all evil;

money makes the world go round.

2007-04-02T06:53:00.000-07:00

aiyo, the class chalet giving me big headache.
just cant find a date that suits all =.= hard ah.

uh oh.
getting lil emotional here.
on some days, i just feel like crying out loud.
just weird lah; just not used to sharing my tears with people.
its like, my heart sinks into a weird mode, then i start to go into a daze, then i just feel like breaking down, for whatever crap reason.
i can stay in the dazed mode for several minutes, just being dazed.
just going crazy if i dont see a pychiatist.

damn, nothing seem to be realleh going my way, even though they weres supposed to go this way. dammit, what am i spouting? uhh, ???
its just, WOA, so sudden, everything just pounces on me.
then what, i am suppose to catch all the balls that ppl are throwing at me.
all their burdens.

I AM NOT GOING TO RETALIATE ANYMORE;
cause i see no point in doing so.

2007-03-31T02:36:00.000-07:00

the girl is unwilling!
aiyo, no lah, she's just S-H-Y.
but angels and mortals cant be mates.
the guy got wings there.
girl; NONE.
hey, let's hold hands and be the bestest friends ever! and we can sing songs like twinkle twinkle.

GGGGRRRRRR~ got a problem with my facial expression?!!

i look SOOOO~ good here, acting cute in front of the com.

MMMM~! the kangeroo tail is yummy. yea, YEA, YEA. yummy!
aaawww~paradise, i havent eaten for days, i better save some bits for hui ting and zhaozhi to try. but and anyway; its too delicious to resist, should thank celina for her great recipe.

oooh~he's bringing the girl to his paradise, where she will die in a few days due to the lack of oxygen and freedom. FLY LIKE THE WIND!

2007-03-30T01:04:00.000-07:00

song:给我你的爱
sad song, so post will be emo.
i just realised something. sometimes, being too cautious of one's appearence and impression in someone else's eyes can cause great destruction.
its like, because you wanna portray the best image of yourself, you tend to lack the X-factor in ur actions. aiyo, kinda like you will start being all fake about ur own character, you won't feel good.and you might just be leaving out the x-factor that ppl like you for. i mean, what for uh? you mean everyone likes PERFEECTO people? like people without flaws? that would be so unnatural and freaky. like, you feel so much more inferior, so why go all out to win someone's heart with a fake personality? WHY? oooh~! INFERIORITY COMPLEX. (like that spelt?!!)
aiyo, does it really matter how one looks?! i guesss it doesnt to me. not as much.
song: curtain falls (BLUE~)
lol, nice song, happy. happy post!
food, i am munching on nuggets now. mmmmm!~yum man.
tomorrow got sports day! i am doing prize presentation table again =.=
dont mind, at least better than sitting down there and doing cheers led by the crazy *****
lol! VULGAR! ops. i mean, she uh, i just dont like her lah. keeps curry flavouring us. like for what?!!!! i dont realleh give a damn!
aiyo, its supposed to be happy until i talked about HER! !@##$%$^ (uh? how come its blue?!)
lol.
song:怎么办
这是快乐歌~！
ever since i had a new co-form teacher this year, i realised how good mr tay had been to us last year. i compared them. although both of them are only co-form for half a year, their attitudes and morals are so different. like duhhh~!!! -.-
mr tay, you are my superwoman, 安静的在你身边。。。
lol. zhaozhi you saw that?!
aiyo, mr tay never insulted our ccas or whatever, he never shouted me in my face, he never ever ever tried to curry flavour us.futhermore, he never really gave a shit when we took too many of his sweets. yeah. he never, and she squeals and give us that face when her food was finished. and damn, i wouldnt wanna touch her stuff man. i rather die of HUNGER. like for once. i rather.

song: sexyback; getting lil horny here. lol. actually, nah.
i cant believe the others are actually in school doing drills, cca. and i am at home, BLOGGING, for once, actually enjoying myself. lol. ahha, guess we realleh needed rest.
REST felt so far last time.

homecoming coming, BUT, no class spirit in me yet, at least not as much as last year. -.- i dont expect instant results but, BULLSHYTE. just not as bonded yet ah. i am in the home ec team. IT JUST DOES NOT APPEAR TO HER THAT I CAN ONLY EAT, I CANT REALLEH COOK.
YEAH, SHE CAN PUT ME IN THE HOME EC TEAM FOR ALL SHE WANTS, I JUST END UP EATING THE SASUAGES I COOK! SO NONE REALLY GOES OUT OF THE OVEN OR FRYING PAN.

THE END. THATS A FULL STOP; in case ya didnt know xD
zhaozhi; uh yea, i did it. i bolded and made it big, lol. -.-

2007-03-24T07:38:00.000-07:00

How to cook a kangaroo tail:

First, get a kangaroo tail. The tail should be ‘fresh’ from a kangaroo; it should not be kept for a long time before cooking. Kangaroo tails that are kept for more than 2 days are no longer considered fresh and they may taste awfully chewy after cooking. Do also note that the colour may not be as appealing.

Second, make sure that the kangaroo tail is shaved neatly; ensure that the kangaroo tail is no longer as hairy as before. The tail should be shaved using a shaver but using a man’s shaver is not advised due to the sharpness of the blade. The proper shaver can be bought from the AFC-FARM. (Animal Friendly Corporation) The tail should reveal a shiny and smooth pink layer if it was shaved using the proper method and equipment. The correct equipment should be used to get the best tasting and best looking kangaroo tail dish.

Third, marinate the delicate kangaroo tail in teriyaki sauce and let it absorb the tastiness of the sauce. Adding some spices such as pepper and salt may help in spicing up the taste buds of the eater. However, avoid adding too much of it because it might destroy and ruin the taste of the meat. 2 hours of marination should be more than enough, depending on the size of the tail. Regardless of the size of the tail, marination should never exceed 3 hours because by then, the tail would have started to become soggy.

After which, coat the tail with corn flour and slip it into the wok of oil. If you are the health conscious type, use less oil, but take note, it will affect the taste because kangaroo tails lack the oil in them and oil adds the taste in many things. Avoid using other types of flour as they might cause serious reaction, such as the change of colour. After frying the tail, it should look golden instead of brown or greenish black. If the tail shows sign of greenish black, avoid consuming the tail because it might have came from a sick kangaroo and eating it would only cause severe diarrohoea.

Lastly, sprinkle a pinch of sugar icing on top of the tail so that it would look more appealing. Sugar icing also enhances the taste of the tail. After the sugar icing, the kangaroo tail is ready to be savored.

ahhah. KANGAROO TAIL.
I WROTE THIS FOR MY TUITION TEACHER. XD
i wonder what her intention was.
>.<
anw, ahha.
we did it TODAY!

2007-03-02T05:54:00.000-08:00

aiyo, kinda feel i am so fortunate to have everything.
and the next moment, woah, i got deprived of everything again,
then when i started to count my blessings, everything returned to me and the cycle carries on.
aiyo, so what am i supposed to do?
accept it when i lose everything.
aiyo, i am so TRAUMATISED.
valerie lim jolly well knows why.
we changed seats, but still sitting with BRAINY.
quite surrounded by 205 ppl.
in fact almost all, except yanli xD

oh brother, what do i do!
in trauma,
in shock,
in a daze.

2007-02-23T05:11:00.001-08:00

ahhaha. today had alot of laugh.
i hereby announce that i am masculine chua.
my pal, feminine lim will be more than happy to be a jiao! (bird in dialect)
feminine lim told me that ji4 also means bird, u know.
ya, literally.
my dad told my uncle, the jiao fly into the house.
so i assume jiao is not a bad word.
then why izzit pajiao?!!
does that mean can change to pa ji also?
jiao and ji means bird anyway.
what has cock eye got to do with birds?!
feminine lim told me to brush up on my dialects.

Could not connect to Blogger.com. Saving and publishing may fail.
gosh, lets see if its flunks this test.

masculine chus signing off to masculine zonal region.
woo,looks like being depressed makes me happier.

2007-02-23T05:11:00.000-08:00

2007-02-17T06:23:00.000-08:00

Sometimes a man has to choose
(yea,sometimes,he has to,obviously!choose a woman he loves,or choose a job he enjoy)
And do something he doesn't wanna do
(yea,true.its like,you cant expect everything to be smooth sailing.like,he likes this girl, but maybe the girl alr has a boyfriend, then he kinda has to give up, even if he doesnt want to.)
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
(its so difficult to choose, LOVE or DREAM? both seem equally important though)
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't
I'll probably regret it
But if I do
I'll probably regret it
(ya,do also regret, dont do also regret. life's just like that. between the devil and the deep blue sea. EG. he loves the girl, but he love someone else more, then if he doesnt choose the girl, he might just end up losing the one he loves more, or worst, lose BOTH!)
How do I cope

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
(oh, so helpless. its like, you hide away, and watch someone you truly love, being so happy with some other person. it hurts eh? no? you cannot do anything, except to just wallow in self pity and misery. AAAAWWWWW~ )
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
(no choice, career more important. its really difficult to choose la. without career, no love. without love, no career, so which do you choose?)
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
(yea,it hurts but sometimes, you just gotta bear with the pain and do whatcha gotta do, do what is best for yourself, not for others. seem selfish, but must be realistic.)
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
(nobody said so, didnt mean it wont hurt! sometimes,getting a taste of it is better than hearing from a third party's voice. but the process sure does hurt hell lot.)
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
(AAAAWWW~ so sad. this is where the sad part comes, she chooses him not becos she really likes him. but becos she needs to find protection, the protection the other guy can never give because he chose his career over love. but she still loves him. he current beau is probably her plaster to heal the wound deep within)
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
(because he chose his career, he loses the girl and thats where it hurts and he is miserable though he has the money. LOVE obviously does not equate to $$$$)
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
(since he has chosen this path, $$$ over love, i guess there is no turning back for him.)
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

How do you deal when you can't be with
the one you love but the one you love is
with somebody else
What do you do when you know she don't love him
but she love me but she cant stand lovin' you faraway
(he can only love her from a distance, keeping his emotions and unfelt love to himself, watching the girl find love in another.)
you just deal with it,deal with it
(I dont wanna have to live with it)
you just deal with it,deal with it
(no,no,no)
you just deal with it,deal with it
(I dont want nobody else alovin' you)
you just deal with it,deal with it
(I dont nobody else alovin' me)

nice song eh?
nice interpretation too?
my interpretation skills suck totally, so i am trying out this song.
if it sounds weird, pardon me, cos i dont know what it really means.

2007-02-16T21:54:00.000-08:00

oh,what do you want me to say?
YOU'RE UTTERLY DISGUSTING.
maybe the person presented to me, was the wrong side.
so i got the wrong image too.
hope this freaks you out.
maybe you wun see it.
but if you do, please freak.

i will post on cny soon!

2007-02-15T05:50:00.000-08:00

what's not worth it, i don't ponder too much over it.
but what's worth it, i do give it some thought before i make my decision, so don't accuse me of not sparing a thought for the issue, when the time comes where you finally WOKE UP from your merry dream.

就算失去所有爱的力量我也不曾害怕
天空透露着微光照亮虚无迷惘
在残垣废墟之中寻找
穿越千年的石板画刻画
着永恒的天堂
轻轻拭去漫布全身的伤
我从不曾绝望

dont waste my time if you know what you're doing is not worth it.
eh,please, you know it,so don't go all out to spoil my day.
there are many more things for me to be happy about.
DONT MAKE ME GO TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY WITH THIS DAMN SLEEPY AND MOODY LOOK, CUZ YOU'RE THE CAUSE!
you dont come rattling all your shit to me, cos i don't really wanna hear it either.
it just makes me PARANOID, then FRUSTRATED!!!!!
please, just do me this small favour.

today got cip again.
played a small while of basketball.
the mad cow's eraser kena stuck on the net there.
we made tang yuan, PINK ones.
yea,no doubt,PINK TANG YUAN.
ai ya,the process was generally fun, with the pri school guys and stuff.

precisely, dont expect what you cant give!

2007-02-08T22:28:00.000-08:00

i played soccer ytd, AGAIN.
now my leg is aching, run here run there, take care of them.
i scored one goal. i am no professional, so, ONE is reasonable.
valerie was so angry with 2 of them.
becos of their attitude.
yea, she couldnt stand it so she stomped outta the field and went to the basket ball court.
i was there alone, playing with the P5 and P6s.
awwww.. it was fun, until..
this guy went to bodyslam me.
he was slightly bigger size than me, but i was taller.
but just imagine the impact.
i did a few weird tricks, by coincidence.
the goal keeper kicked the ball to me and i used by knee to stop the ball at my feet.
then kick kick kick, then OUT!
lol. i dont know where is the goal post la
they kept changing/
MORE.MORE.MORE.
not today.
there;s camp later, orientation camp.
yea, hope nothing goes wrong with the games, and gees, singspiration is scrapped.
we are going to youth ablaze, what a pity, but it should be fun too.

if it were you, you won't say the same thing as you did now,just trust me.

2007-02-07T06:06:00.000-08:00

7feb 07, anghui: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELINA!!!!!!
LOL! thanks! when is ur birthday anw?!

7 Feb 07, 03:09huiting: HAPPY B"DAE NAHNA! ur pressie will be late.. oops. hope u dun mind, heh^^''
I KNOW! YOU TOLD ME! I DONT MIND LAH, SERIOUSLY. THANKS!

7 Feb 07, 02:36elaine: valerie, thanks for that talk, my love. <3
valerie says BYE. lol!
u make her cannot study lah!
>.<

7 Feb 07, 02:36elaine: happy birthday, celina!!
uhhh. thanks too (:

7 Feb 07, 02:11james: no $5 for you -.-
hello, i thought you were broke so i didnt take ur $5! but you had so much monae la. i might consider taking tmr >.<

7 Feb 07, 01:34Zhaozhi: fifteen-yr-old! XD
YAYA, and ure way YOUNG! and immature! LOL! kidding. yea,sounds so OLD. but i am not!

6 Feb 07, 06:27Yiqing: nahna and weewee, sitting in a tree. k-i-s-s-i-n-g!
OI! YIQING AND FRANCESCA SITTING ON THE TREE, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!
THEN CAME A WEE WEE AND NAHNA AND THEY WERE CAUGHT OFF GUARD, AND OBVIOUSLY, THE SMOOCHING STOPPED!
Lol!

6 Feb 07, 05:07-leegek: happy birthday to u in advance!
CLEVER GIRL. first to wish me eh? in advance. not ure not the first for advance wishes. AHHHAAAAHAHAAHAHAHA. sorry, abit unstable today.

6 Feb 07, 04:13huiting: haha. i din realise u lyk mr cho
6 Feb 07, 04:12huiting: uh-oh. its not me lor. hu ask u run that time nvr look in frnt. orh i
forgot...eyes to small.
oi!
first, i do not like mr cho
second, it was ur fault!
wa lao! whether i look front or not, its not like i can control who or what i wanna fall onto and into! anw,i didnt care. but i tink i accidentally eat the guy's dou fu. =X

PEOPLE, thanks for the gifts.
seriously. and i had a hard time carrying them home.
my arms ached. SO YA, thanks

THANKS:
-ZHAOZHI
-VALERIE
-STEPHANIE
-GRACIE
-FAVIAN
-JAMIE YEO
-LIYING
-FRANCESCA AND YIQING
-ANGELINE AND CHERILYN

AND THANKS FOR THE MANY MANY WISHES TOO.

2007-02-06T02:45:00.000-08:00

there's geog test tmr.
so much to memorise, yet i just cant resist switching on the PC and blogging.
yesterday-CIP at HIS connection
today
-favian's brithday (not the main point)
-A-maths test
tomorrow-MY BIRTHDAY..

yesterday:
me and val played soccer with the pri3s and 4s.
wow, they are good man. and they are so energetic
then we like first aider, if someone falls down, we immediately run to them and ask 'are u okay?'
then its like they always say okay lah.
i scored a goal.
okay, obviously we didnt have the energy to score anymore
cos we were like super nannys.
ya, serious.
then got this guy keep asking me to look into his eyes and he will hypotise me.
WTH! lol!
then i ask him to look at me then i hypnotise him.
then he say, my butt facing u, u cannot hypnotise me!
-.-
my eyes too small, u cannot hypnotise me either.
haha.ya,all in all, ytd was tiring. SOCCER.
nice game though, personal feelings.

TODAY:
oh, its favian's birthday.
ya, i didnt wish him. thats rude.
okay, main point.
i am so going to flunk my a maths test!
i revised real hard.
but when i did the paper, i just couldnt think
its like, waste my efforts.
my efforts just didnt get paid off.
why shld i even bother? it really make me wonder.
WHY SHOULD I??
becos i care. WTH! my studies, so important.
but i really did study, i tot i would do well, in the end.
what shit lah.

tomorrow:
like who will know what is going to happen tmr?
i dont.
u shouldnt either.
UNLESS.....

huiting, u made me crash into a group of guys today, you will PAY!
big time. and i am serious.
though i dont know how. XD but u will!

2007-01-26T06:32:00.000-08:00

ytd we went to HIS connection for cip.
the kids were so RUDE!
the first qn they asked was, 'jie jie, why you so short?!'
i was like -.^ you know that is sensitive.
and they went on rattling.
NO SHORTIES>
and they kept ranting about my height even though i left them alone.
oh gosh, that is sensitive topic you know.
MY HEIGHT.
then got one boy, he was like 1.5 head shorter than me
then he said, i am ALMOST as tall as you.
i was like.
NO! WAY NO!
and there was this other guy, who was doing a damn funnae dance
damn hilarious.
his actions cannot be put into word.
if u want, u can come ask me, i will show u his WONDERFULLY FUNNAE dance.
HAHA.

MY RANTINGS.
OH GOSH.WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE.
YOU EXPECT OTHER TO GIVE YOU SOMETHING YOU CANNOT GIVE?
DONT EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM OTHERS AND YOURSELF PLEASE?
YOU CANT GIVE, SO DONT EXPECT OTHERS TO GIVE.
AND NO WAY AM I GOING TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU EXPECT.
SOMETIMES, THE THINGS YOU DO TOTALLY HURT.
JUST THAT NO ONE AND I DONT SAY IT.
SERIOUSLY, ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS.
BUT YOU KEEP RAKING UP THE DAMN PAST LAH.
AND FINDING WAYS AND MEANS TO GO BACK TO THE OLD TIMES.
HEY.
WAKE UP.
ITS NOT POSSIBLE.
AND ONE THING TO TAKE NOTE.
DONT TREAT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU LIKE SHIT
TALKING ABOUT THEM LIKE THEY ARE YOUR PUPPIES.

woah.i am done venting my anger.
zhaozhi, dont misunderstand.
got the raking up the past but its nothing to do with our class.
LOL.
and its just this one SHITTY person who got me so angry.
dont think its you, cos the person is not likely to see this.
are you assured?! (:

38 souls
one class.
WOAH.I AM RAKING UP THE PAST.
i am blogging thanks to zhao and ting, zhi and hui.

2007-01-23T00:32:00.000-08:00

point taken:
A PERSON WHO JUST SITS THERE QUIETLY IS MORE CHARISMATIC THAN SOMEONE WHO TALKS TOO MUCH.
whats the point of talking so much when someone who does not talk gets even more attention than one who does?
a smile tells a thousand stories.
a laughter shows happiness.
a small voice tells a MILLION THRILLION stories.
the quieter the person is, the more mysterious he or she gets.
i am someone who wants to find out more about someone who does not appear to be what they seem.
WATCH OUT MAN~
people who are quiet.
i will be watching you, because you really interest me.

2007-01-08T04:55:00.000-08:00

i did a good deed today.
i woke a sleeping uncle in the bus.
we reached the interchange so he was supposed to wake up
but obviously he wasnt awake.
then i started laughing really loud,going quite near to him.
then he woke up la.
NATURALLY, and not becos i went to poke him or wake him up verbally.
HAHA.
good eh?
professional laugher.

2006-12-29T07:05:00.000-08:00

confusion admist vast clarity.
one say i shld be happy and contented, one say i shldnt count my blessings.
WHICH TO DO?

2006-12-25T05:51:00.000-08:00

GUYISH:

[x] You like being sweaty.
[x] You love hoodies and jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[X] At times, it's funny when people get hurt.
[x]You've played with/against boys on a team.

Total: 5

[ ] Shopping is torture
[x] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own an XBox.
[X] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You own a PSP.
Total: 2

[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[x] You watch sports on TV
[x] Gorey movies are awesome
[ ] You only go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
Total: 2

[X] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball/basketball cards.
[X] Baggy pants are cool.
[X] Fire is cool.
[ ] You don't babysit.
Total: 3

[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] black, red, blue or silver are your favorite colors
[x] You don't care about your hair sometimes
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Contact sports like football are fun too.
Total: 4

Now add the numbers up and multiply it by 4.
I'm 64% guyish. ONLY?

GIRLY:

[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[ ]You love to shop all the time.
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You buy different colored shirts.
[ ] You have many of the same shirts in different colors
Total: 1

[ ] You don't like shopping at hot topic
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You love hanging at the mall.
Total: 0

[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] You like wearing jewelery.
[ ] Skirts are a part of your wardrobe.
[ ] You take a long time doing your hair.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
Total: 0

[ ] You hate the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance
[ ] It takes you around 30 minutes to get dressed and put on make-up and accesories.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more then 10 pairs of shoes.
Total: 1

Add them up and multiply by 5.
i am 10% girly.
AHAHA.
just knew it.

2006-12-12T02:29:00.000-08:00

drats man, i tink this post will be a sour one.
so i better make it short and sour.
i cant understand why some ppl just get better luck.
why they can be so not themselves, yet getting more than what they deserve?
not my forte to judge but its a sudden thought.
its like, WHY LA. everything is just why.
oh gosh, i am just turning sour with each bit i type.

2006-12-11T17:54:00.000-08:00

after some self reflection, i decided to do sth good for kim jung hoon.
this song is nice
his voice is not bad.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uIzYdoh_0F4

2006-12-07T01:27:00.000-08:00

THE MOVIE TRIP TO VIVO

the protagonists-
!ELIZEBETH
@ZHAOZHI
#VAL TAN
$CELINA $$$$$
%HUTING
^JOLEEN
& YINGZHI
*LIMO!!! $$$$
missed anyone out?

sure, i did try on sth sick.
everyone, don't blink!
i tried on a tube top~
oh brother.
sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick
okay, enuf of sicks.

when we reached vivo, we went to kopitiam.
i ate fried fish bee hoon.
with kopi-si
wa seh! its yummy la.
total spent: $3.50 + $1.10 = $4.60
woa, and thats for lunch.
haha.imagine going to starbucks and ordering a kopi-si.
or a teh-O .
HAHAHA!
then we went to macs to get ice creams and what nots.
ying zhi couldnt finish the fries and zz offered us. (me, joleen, limo)
before that, me and joleen were alr controlling ourselves, BREATHING in HARD.
the fries' smell was OVERPOWERING!
then limo say, whoever who touches the fries first must pay the other $1.
AWW~ no way was i going to give limo a buck!
but it was ssoooooo tempting.
in the end, i guess she couldnt resist it too, so she took the first fries.
BUT, we were kind. (joleen and i)
so we din GRAB her one buck.
then we went to eat taiwan small eat. ( taiwan xiao chi)
eat the CHII-CKEN!

after which, we went back to vivo.
oh, we went to habourfront centre to get the ice creams.
but eliz had to leave.
AAWWW~
she went for some choir concert.
but val tan din go.
WHY? i dont know. (:
went into erm, a shop.
tried on the sick THING.
with a damn cool jacket.
total cost for that set- $20 for the jacket, $20 for the THING.
it was quite loose.
i have to keep pulling it to keep it up there.
it fits zz well.
slightly too tight for limo.
doesnt mean i am thin, just means that i am smaller in size.
-.-
how can i be thin, eating so much junk food and stuff.
nvm.shall continue eating. ENJOY MYSELF.
then went to forever 21 to try something else.
LOL!
before that, we went to toys'r'rus.
sorry
i am no spelling bee. BBBZZZZZ

then went to watsons to get something. VALERIE"S daily necessities.
then we went to vivomart to get coffee milk.
drink finished alr, it got us really damn real full.
but it was nice.
limo needed to buy breakfast for her mei mei and herself
so i went too.
bought buns for myself and my sis.
for breakfast, cos i dun want to be always eating boring plain bread or noodles or beehoon.
carrot cake is OKAY but eat too many times will sian.

PS-something maybe some ppl would like to take note.
AAAAHHh!
I SAW GABRIEL IN TIGHTS TODAY,LIMO SAW TOO.
DONT KNOW IF FRANCEE AND CHENG TENG SAW.
HE WAS RIDING A BIKE.
EEYER.

that's all tonight folks.
tune in tmr for another episode of elmo's world!

2006-11-29T05:48:00.000-08:00

haha! now i have a new person to 'idolise'

hahahhhh! many will say i am crazy;

i dun idolise him, but i tink he very funny and 善良！

哈哈！

watching project superstar then suddenly feel like laming/

so i posted this!

say my newest idol is nice and idol-ise-able.

2006-11-27T05:44:00.000-08:00

reply tags:

eliz: LOL. LOL> i can't stop laughing!!! the yul website thingy on youtube. LOL. it's really very stupid and funny looking?! hahs..he looks really flowerish with abit of chicken actions?
yes! ya la. he huh... so chicken-like! LOL! sorry, no offence xD ji joo hoon is better. (izzit spelt this way?)
24 Nov 06, 03:23huiting: s.hi.t
24 Nov 06, 03:22huiting: ****
24 Nov 06, 03:22huiting: oops
24 Nov 06, 03:22huiting: ~~wads with e songs, huh?~~
whats wrong? got weird meh? or the song keeps repeating?
23 Nov 06, 09:22elaine: hihi. (x i jus miss you 2 la. (x
LOL! xD hi to you again!!
22 Nov 06, 05:41Yiqing: class outing in december? kakaka.
yupp! you and francee planning first izzit? then tell the class? YES! good idea.
22 Nov 06, 05:26angeline: heh. tag.
oh.HELLO! (:
20 Nov 06, 08:00leegek: HERE U GO!
20 Nov 06, 07:30leegek: good dat u noe lo. . dis dumb quila!
eh! u very evil. dun bully your junior. she is only sec1!!
20 Nov 06, 06:36.quila!: leegek IS a slowpoke! hiakhiakhiak
hi-five man.she is really a slowpoke!

just came back from camp. (25nov-27nov)
generally, its fun.
i just found out alot of things:
-mr cho has a girlfriend.LOL! his gf must be so sway to find such a weird bf. 3 year relationship!
-my scarfs and winter caps will be pink! AAAHHH! and! i look super girly in them!! EEEEE!!

one day before camp i had strange encounters.
according to time order.

-i met taufik at vivo city. he was with his gf.who looked like a chinese. at least i tink its his gf.then the security guard started snapping shots of him with his gf.LOL! so weird.of all ppl, security guard.then taufik kinda lost his fame. i saw him twice when i was in vivo. not many ppl was bothering him, getting signatures and pictures and stuff, so sad.

-i saw fiona xie and ben (yang zhi long?) i duunno la. i saw them acting.in vivo. ben was putting his arms over fiona's shoulder. LOL! but they were acting la.
the crowd was dispersed!

-when i was in heartland mall for gb discussion, i saw mr jackson ng! WA SEH. miss him man. he like so fatherly. during proj work always play lame stuff with us. UNCLE JACKSON. CHEE KO PEH!

HERE COMES THE MOST THRILLING PART!
GUESS WHAT?!
when i was in the 854 bus going to tuition from somewhere near heartland, i saw gabriel tay-.-
i was looking at my fone, messaging shaowei, then he entered the bus and walked towards me. i still din know he was gabriel,then he suddenly say.' CELINA CHUA, WHAT ARE U DOING HERE?' then i was like.STUNNED. then i said tuition. he asked, REALLY?!' hello, like why would i even bluff abt going to tuition. he say holiday shouldnt study.he say must enjoy and relax, school reopen then start chionging again. ERM! EVERYONE, LET'S PUT HIS WORS INTO ACTION!! LET'S SLACK.THEN WHEN WE DON'T DO WELL, WHO DO WE BLAME?
then he told me what, when he alight then i will know where he stay. he dropped at the church there. then he say he is a holy man. he is the only man in the church. so ERM.
in all, gabriel din really talk much sense.AND! his appearence was weird. gel-ed his hair, tucked in his shirt. AAAHHH! all in all, weird. SUPER SHOCKING EXPERIENCE.

yupp,that's all.
hyprocrisy is rampant.

2006-11-20T18:52:00.000-08:00

寓言

angela zhang

我逛到这条热闹的街太阳晒得我有点累

奇怪最近我爱碎碎念但又觉得 i don't care

我站在喜怒哀乐面前阅读我下一个画面

我想去冒险不管一路多危险 na ~~~~

我期待童话般的爱情却不想那样的绝对

给我一个大大的拥抱什么语言 i don't care

我要专心体会每一天还是学会打发时间

飞得高一点作我自己最特别 na ~~~~

我才发现梦想与现实间的差别

逆着风让自己体验每一个感觉

就像是寓言流泪喜悦看过这一天

我想追追寻完美的世界

我还要飞飞得很高很远在我的世界

kan ba de ne不怕不后退

闭上双眼许一个心愿

勇敢向前梦不会碎

2006-11-20T00:22:00.000-08:00

A Moment Like This
by Kelly Clarkson

What if I told youIt was all meant to be
Would you believe me,
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
That we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come and now...

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this...
Some people wait a lifetime

For a moment like this
Some people spent two lifetimes,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

OHHHH, LIKE THIS

OHHHH, YEAH, 'cuz people search for every moment yeah.

Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this.

Ohhhhh, like this.

2006-11-18T05:05:00.000-08:00

reply tags:

huiting: silly NAHNA whoa. hehehe
WHOA your head ah! NOT FUNNY -.^ i am not silly >.<
17 Nov 06, 03:43zz: silly nahna? lol!
i don't know what he is saying! he is weird xD
17 Nov 06, 03:42zz: mr. cho? =.= HAHA
yes.its him.its MR FRANKLIN CHO. the weird guy with a weird gabriel friend.
16 Nov 06, 19:31elaine: lols. elaine misses u 2. hees. <33333
LOL! xD next year 205 splitting alr. =(
16 Nov 06, 18:56mr cho: hi silly nahna. i saw 205's kite in the National Library. haha. HELLO?!!! why am i silly? 5 mark qn. national lib? i have no idea abt it. LOL! okay la. you said u are disturbed by the words worst enemy. too strong a word to use. but i dun really hate you. just like i told you, i just put it for effect and fun purposes. if it did hurt(LOL!), SORRY! anyway, don't need to be disturbed one la!
16 Nov 06, 03:50leegek: fine lo. . hahax. .
SLOWPOOKE! AND LAME PIG! AHAHAHA!! LOL!

11 ppl from our class is got a combi of 3a3.
10 ppl got 4a. dunno how many got 1a1. around 7-9? anghui, terence, joleen, eliz, favian. looks like we should be quite in the same class. LOL! dunno what i am saying.

pardon my impudence.

2006-11-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

reclusing oneself from things that one cannot get nay not be the best solution.
letting go is good.
but even before u have even try, you give up.
its just not right.
sometimes, we wonder why others are more fortunate or more blessed than ourselves.
but very often, we do not look at the big picture.
its kinda like we do not know all the things that happen behind those images of perfection and happiness.
no one can be perfect but everyone can be happy xD
whether you are happy or not, you have to rely on urself.
its kinda like you make yourself happy, and influence the people around you.
make everyone happy too.
its kinda like a good deed done(:
oh brother.
i have used alot of KINDA. >.<
sometimes, giving up before even trying is PHEW EEE.
its shit. cos later when u want to regret, its all kinda too late.

PS: GIVING UP AND LETTING GO ARE TWO VERY DIFFERENT THINGS.
so different, they can never meet.
because a person who gives up without trying is a loser.
but a person who lets go is wise, knowing that holding on will cause more pain and hurt.
wise man and loser can never be together.
you either choose to be a loser, or a wise man!

2006-11-13T21:17:00.000-08:00

when its time to let go, just let go.
there is not point trying to hold back something that is gone or going to be gone.
sometimes, letting go brings misery but reality is harsh.
we just have to get on with life.
if we stop and brood over what we have lost, living our life is probably a torture.
*LETTING GO brings short term misery but long term happiness and bliss.
when its time, it's time.
so no point holding on, knowing it can never be yours to own
(:

2006-11-09T06:30:00.000-08:00

YES!
i am here to promote the disgusting-ness of YUL.

CLICK! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyJc5bs7lJ8

i tink anyone who watch this video will be shocked.
PLUS!
disgusted
he was trying to act like a flower pluc chicken.
but i cnt deny his voice is real nice.
xD

2006-11-01T18:17:00.000-08:00

Name 13 of your friends that you can think of right now! dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people.
1) zhaozhi
2) elizebeth
3) valerie lim'
4) huiting
5) val tan
6) liying
7)joleen
8) stephy
9) daphne
10)zeyong
11) james
12) anghui
13) gracie

how did you meet 10?
since the first day of secondary school?

what would you do if you had never met 1?
Commit suicide. Fortunately, I met her.LOL! i dun think i will ever listen to JAY songs.

what would you do if 2 & 6 are dating
i would wish them all the best! just kidding. i will think that they are lesbians =X

have you seen 4 cried?
erm! YES! i sure did.

do you think 10 is cute?
OMG.is zeyong cute?! LOL! i dunno? friendly i guess.

how did you get to know 8?
primary school communication?she was in the same class as me in pri sch?

would you ever go on a date with 12? not possible.cos she alr found her loved one. even though i would really like to date her =) LOL!

what's 7's favourite colour?
beige?! i thought i heard her saying that.

What would you do if 6 confessed that he/she likes you?
i would jump for joy cos she is real slim since she is in chinese dance. met one of my perfect girlfriend criteria (:

fact about 9
she is a very hyper and crazy v.ball player?

who is 4 going out with?
i dunno?she is single at the moment?!

who is number 5 to you?
a fellow understander of celina's lame jokes.

would you ever live with 13?
NOPE! she will keep whacking and splashing water on me!

Is 2 single?
NOT REALLY? she's got such a manyly "boyfriend" like ME!

what do you think about 3?
ERM! fellow lame joke teller XD who loves JAY too!

whats the best thing about number 5?
she understands most of my lame jokes?

what do you like about 11?
he is not a gay?!

favourite memory with 2?
TOO MANY TO NAME?! going out with her to the ice skating rink?!

tag 6 people to do this quiz:
-huiting (she requested!)
-i dunno
-up to you
-if u want
-u do it
-if not
THEN DONT?!

2006-10-30T20:37:00.000-08:00

Full name: -
Name backwards: -
Meaning of the name: -
Nickname: nahna chua? what else?
Date of birth: 7 feb 1992
Place of birth: Singapore-mount evenor (sorry.i dunno how to spell it)
Star sign:aquaris
Religion: christian xD
Height: sensitive question (:
Weight: 40kg maybe plus plus. cos i eat so much?
Shoe size: 5
Hair colour: Black?
Eye colour: Black?
Lefty or righty: Right
Gay, straight, bi or others: straight guy XD
Best friends: you name yourself.i better not state.very unfair? LOL!
Best friends you trust most: -NIL-
Favourite pals: almost everyone i know?!
Best friend of opposite sex: you name it xD
Best buddies: i hate to name. too many -.-
Boyfriend or girlfriend: you wun know. LOL!
Crush: -
Worst enemy: mr cho
Favourite online guy: -
Favourite online gal: -
Craziest friend: tan huiting?!
Advice friend: zhaozhi?eliz?james?VALERIE LIM?nono.
Loudest friend: WEN JUN!
Person you cry with: i wun cry in front of anyone ever again. cos its the last thing i will ever do (:
Any sisters: one pesky one.
Any brothers: NOPE.
Any pets: goldfish?
Any disease: i dunno? not detectable at the moment?
Personal line: -
Phone: -
Lava lamp: -
Pool or hot tub: pool
A car: i have one secretly. but i cnt drive. JOKING.
Your personality: i dun even know my personality. tell me what type of person i am.
School: XINMIN SEC!
Relationship with parents: okay? i guess?
Believe in yourself: sometimes?
Believe in love at first sight: No?
Good listener: tell me if i am.
Get along with parents: not always. differing opinion?
Save email conversations: NO?
Pray: YUPP. almost every night. unless i fall dead asleep.
Believe in reincarnation: i dunno?
Make fun of people: uh huh! i do! who don't?
Talk on the phone: yupp?
Want to get married: married to a girl of my dreams.
Like to drive: YES! that's cool!
Motion sickness: NO.but valerie lim has.
Eat stem of broccoli: weird question. sometimes i do?
Eat chicken with fork: sometimes. or i just stuff it into my mouth.
Dream in colour: brown and black
Sleep with stuffed animals: yes.one doggie-5 yr old.
Dream car: i havent really decided yet? those 2 seater type of car?
Dream date: -
Dream honeymoon spot: -
Dream wife:a hot one?
Bedtime: 11 plus plus?
Under my bed: Floor and maybe some dust?
Single most important question: -
Bad time of the day: 12.00am! HOT!
Your worst fear: LIVE lizards? dead ones are fine.
The weather is: warm?
Time: 12.47am?
Date: 31 oct 2006
Best trick did on someone: HAHAH! not revealing it xD
Hardest things about growing up: growing tall?
Silliest thing you have done: cry?
Most desperate thing you have ever done to an opposite sex: -
Worst feeling: MOODY?
Best feeling in the world: HAPPY?
4 people to do this: i dont know? do it if you want to? i was asked to do.so i did(:

oh brother.i am so bored.

2006-10-30T18:11:00.000-08:00

WAHAH.
i have probs uploading the other pics.
i am just being bored.
xDdun mind me.

2006-10-28T22:45:00.000-07:00

WAHAHA!
13oct is not anyone's birthday.
HAH.but 7feb is mine birthday.
13 oct this yr is friday the 13th.
and bad stuff happened!!
but i still like that day for certain stupid reasons.

darn.
i really hate pancakes when they are cold.
list of food i hate:
-steamed fish with iky skin!!!
-seafood, lobster all these.
-TOMATO!!
-plum.the fruit thingy.
-cold pancakes?!
i cant think of anything else at this moment XD
but i really shun seafood.
not that i am allergic or what but i just feel that it taste so seafood and fishy?

WU~!
i din know that ppl i dunno the blogs are so interesting to read.
as in, if u know the person it kinda makes READING weird.
as in if u read their post u kinda change ur perception of that person?!
but when u dunno a person, u read his or her posts and u try to figure out and guess what type of person he or she is.
so its like super fun?!
LOL!
its like in the end, after reading all of their posts, you go to their friends blogs and see their friends opinion of them.
then u see if ur guess about that person's personality is right!!
FUN?!
whatever, i find it so interesting.
since now i got so much time on my hands.
must enjoy.
drill prac going to start soon.

MY HEART IS AT PEACE WITH EVERYTHING!!
wahahaHAHA!

2006-10-27T00:37:00.000-07:00

am i crazy or what?!
i started reading a person's blog.
strangely, i dont know the person.
but i find his posts pretty interesting.
trying to figure out what type of person he is.
LOL!
lame and stupid but his posts are really inspirational?!
yupp.its kinda like weird but i just enjoy reading it.
anyway, i just go around reading ppl's blogs.
ppl i know and ppl i dunno.
and ppl who are just mere aquaintences? (spelt this way?!)
just read to see how ppl feel, their thoughts and stuff?!
interesting to see how different ppl view things!!

oh.i realised something.
celina can be a real bitchy name.
AND!!
it can also be a real innocent name.
i went to blogger and searched for my name.
initially, all that came out were bitchy stuff, ****-sensored- and stuff
but as i clicked on, celina this name seem to be really nice?!
like dunno what charity stuff...

erm.
thoughts gathered while reading ppl's blogs-
is it good to know someone who is a soccer freak?!
and all he cares is about soccer and he neglects his friends and stuff?!
i dunno many girls who are soccer freaks.
wait.i dont know any female soccer freak.

the shadow that hides behind darkness- WA!
Behind shadow of invisibility!!
Endless immortality that lives within him.
Shadow hides like a shadow.
Hearing the winds of his spirits with in him at all times.
Wild and free.
-WU~!!
this was what i saw on someone's blog.
SHADOW!!

"MAke sure u all stand straight, stomach in, chest out! U r suppose to do this in order to keep the belt secure at ur chest! Make sure i can c the shape of ur nipple!"
an extract from the same person's blog.
LOL!!
funny XD
it was meant for NCC ppl. according to that person.

130ct/7feb (:

2006-10-22T00:14:00.000-07:00

REPLY TAGS:

zz: water works means the last thing u would ever do during an exam?
yupp.somehow it means that.but i was close to water works means i still havent done the last thing i would do during an exam (:
21 Oct 06, 07:48huiting: ^^
-.^
21 Oct 06, 05:56huiting: LOLs
LOLS!! regarding?!
21 Oct 06, 00:32james: close to water works hahaha
close to! means i din break down.
anyway, have you ever seen guys crying over exam results?
i seldom.
so i wun cry XD
try making me cry la.
21 Oct 06, 00:31james: lol -.- put lemon alr?
uh huh.he was contradicting his previous answer la.
anyway, lemon smelled weird.
21 Oct 06, 00:29james: HAHAHA LOLLIPOP TRICK! I INVENTED IT ^^
yupp.u invented it but i din manage to master it.
kena stuck at the sleve.
21 Oct 06, 00:29james: lol mr tay fan club?!
everyone is crazy about mr tay.
he and his fan club!!
19 Oct 06, 07:41eliz: =)) good for u! your english. =) i totally agree with your latest post.
u agree with which part?
the princess hours one izzit?
i mean its really true.
it will never happen.
we just enjoy watching it cos its a fairytale most people will wish for (:
LOL.my english wasnt as fantastic.
but i was satisfied.
you shld be happy that you tried your best too =)
19 Oct 06, 02:25zz: GEE! blah? LOL!
you talking baby language?
LOL!
joking.
gagagoogooo?
no offense XD

2006-10-21T23:36:00.000-07:00

just when everyone seem really dead, i feel so dead too.
oh crap.
seriously,i don't wish for the hols to come so quickly.
next year, we wun be the same 205 anymore.
as in even as we may say that we will still stay as a class, we are not anymore.
change in environment, friends, study objectives, aspirations.
two years was simply too fast?
two years and it bye bye already.
i really hate to adapt again.
who knows, maybe next yr i will go to a class with ppl i never talked to before.
but it'll be a good chance to know new people and make better friends?
14 going on to 15 means our childish concepts have to change?
our mindset have to change?
it will be study and study from then on?
study for my future?
darn. its like all the fun is gone.
have to get outta our child-like thoughts.
ARE WE MATURING?
my teacher once told me, the day you know what you want in life and how to make decisions for yourself, WE HAVE MATURED.
but is it really true.
i doubt anyone wants to mature.
its such a long way.
but soon as we look back, all the childhood memories are almost half through. its going to be gone with the wind soon.

OUR DEEP DESIRE TO FEEL IMPORTANT.
i read this book and it says that everyone wants to feel treaured.
everyone wants to feel loved?
NAH..
everyone wants to feel IMPORTANT.
anyway,i just feel that everyone is equally important.
everypne plays a role in someone else's lives so why arent they important?
A QUOTE FROM THE BOOK:
"the unvarished truth is that almost all the people you meet feel themselves superior to you in some way, and a sure way to their hearts is to let them realise that in some subtle way that you recognise their importance woth a sincere heart."
somehow, it struck me real hard.
maybe sometimes we have been taking the people arnd us for granted.
as in we feel and enjoy their presence and company but the thing is that we do not really get the chance to thank them for all they have done.
it is like, we are frens this year and next year, we are strangers.
we don't get to thank the people who have been by our side all this while because we have found new friends, meaning, new people who can share our woes and be the ones who will be by our sides.
anyway, here a little thing to everyone:
THANK YOU FOR BEING PART AND PARCEL OF MY LIFE!!
this is to people who have made my day (:
YOU ARE REALLY IMPORTANT TOO XD

are we able to hold on to our principles when faced with a difficult situation?
are we still able to resist the temptations to betray our souls when we are faced with a touchy situation?
are we still able to stay firm saying NO to the "demon"?
will there come a day that we give up our beliefs because we are masked by revenge?anger?hatred?jealousy?the urge to climb to the top?
everyone has their own obligations but..
forget it.
YUL became a 'monster' of his mother's vengance.
his mother said she is willing to sell her soul to the demon as long as YUL can become the king.
will there come a day all of us who used to detest such people, become like them too?
WHOO~
i can tell you i dont know.
(:
neither do i want to know.

haiyo.
the hols have to go back for gb thrice every one week.
for 4 hrs of drills.
have 2 training camps and 1 supposedly leisure camp.
i going beijing so i missing 1 training camp.
its with yuying.
thats why i am reluctant about the hols being so soon.

they always say, absence make the heart fonder.
HAHahhah.
i seriously cant bring myself to agree with that statement.
absence does two things:
-numb your image of a person
-make you totally!!! forget that person
numb and forget is different.
numb means if u see that person again, you will just feel the same.normal in a sense.
yupp.
forget means you dun bother to remember the happy days you spent with that person.
EH. i am not saying all these in the context of LOVERS.
its just for ppl who havent seen their friends or ppl they held dear to them.
but absence also can have adverse effects la.
fonder?
i cnt understand how it can make the heart fonder.
seriously.
tell me how if u dont agree (:

BEHIND MANY SMILES IS A DEPRESSED SOUL.
true or not true, up to the indivisual to determine XD

2006-10-19T02:16:00.000-07:00

today was a really bad day.
many tissues were wasted.
but i think there was still something worth smiling about?
seeing that one's hard work is paid off?
SERIOUSLY, DOES ONE REALLY REAP WHAT HE SOWS?
i really cnt agree with that statement.
there was quite alot of free time, then alot of ppl played stress.
i was playing stress then bong asked me, "eh,u not girl huh, why u nv scream one?!"
i was like,DUH.
i am no girl!
but i mean screaming is just for the excitement?
nvm =D
princess hours is nice.
the story is very draggy but the incidents featured inside is way out of the ordinary and it just make u fantasize.
it just makes u feel HAPPY? but playing with ur thoughts.
anyway, even if we know that such things,like marrying a prince, can never happen i real life, why do we still enjoy watching such shows?
at least we feel happy?
its pyscological?
YUL?
SHIN?
CHAEGYUNG?
they are part of a fairytale that can never happen.
but anyway,they are real fortunate.

i am finally satisfied with my eng marks.
the last test totally swept me off my feet man.
i was this close to water works.
but that is the last thing i will ever do(:
HAH.
but no one can control their emotions huh.
anyway, we all shld rest and relax now.
i mean after all the hard work.
time to pamper ourselves.
LOL!
have you ever wonder why some people are just so different when you look at them?
like they have got the experience,charm and X-factor.
some ppl are just so blissful to be born with that charisma.
but they work for it too huh.

PLEASE.
DON'T DO THE LAST THING I WILL DO AFTER AN EXAM.
IT IS AN OBVIOUS SIGN OF WEAKNESS.
IT JUST CRUMBLES YOUR BRAVE FRONT.
NOT WORTH IT (:
LOOK FORWARD.
ITS PRETTY BRIGHT!!

2006-10-14T22:12:00.000-07:00

ytd the bio med thingy was way weird.
imagine.
primary 6 ppl calling me "JIE JIE" when they were like way much taller than me.
the lollipop trick din really work cos it always got stuck at my sleve.
the colour dye stained my shirt. how sway.
anyway, i found the open house not very formal.
i used chinese plus english to talk.then stuck the lolly into my mouth and continued talking to them like i had some mouth disease or something.
to make them interested in the dna stuff, we had to speak their language;
meaning, use 'jargons'
speak their kinda ah lian or ah beng language.
okay.but not all use that language.
the parents were weird.
i made mistakes then i say sorry then they start laughing like it was a very super big joke.
tripping over something also made them laugh.
or did i look like a clumsy little THING??
maybe i did.
but maybe everyone else did too.
after my shift, i went to help private bai with her perfume stuff cos one uncle didnt understand english.
i said sth like, ni wen na ge PERFUME then ni can ta men zai yi qi then wo men hui bang ni fang na ge ENTHANOL ni de PERFUME jiu ke yi yong le.
but who cares la.
if he didnt understand what nonsense i was sprouting he could ask.
then i helping this aunty mix the perfume then he son at the back, "can i make?i want to make. can i try. i want to try to make the perfume." then i was like later. then after a while, he asked again. i tink i said guys no need perfume.
he smell everything then he say he wasnt to put everything.
ltr i ask him u want to put lemon inside, he was like no.
then after that he ask me, you put lemon alr?
so contradicting.

then went to hougang mall for LJS.
with private bai and ying yin jun.
i am wan zhen jun.
then we went to read porn comics.
suddenly feel so disgusted by those images.
but obviously, valerie and zz din feel it.
i dunno why.
maybe i am becoming more MAN.
HAHhah.

stop drowning yourself.

2006-10-13T01:53:00.000-07:00

everybody please take note:

TODAY IS BE-NICE-TO-EVERYBODY DAY.
SO IF YOU HAVENT BEEN NICE TO ANYONE ALL YOUR LIFE, JUST TRY TO LOVE THE PERSON TODAY.THEN THE NEXT DAY YOU CAN START HATING THAT PERSON AGAIN(: NICE IDEA? PEOPLE,BE NICE.

2006-10-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

MATHS TEACHER SAVES CAT
today a maths teacher was transformed into a hero! mr gabrial tay from xinmin secondary was reported saving a cat in distress. at around 4.15pm today, ms elizabeth chewand some of her frens, students from xinmin secondary, saw a cat in the drain.as a cat lover, she could not bear seeing a poor kitten trapped in a drain.her 1st instinct was to seek help from her maths teacher,mr tay.but why him?(ahem ahem...sry to be rude but i think it's becos he smells lyk cat food)

as reporters valerie lim and celina chua stood outside the sch gate waiting to capture the picture of the 'charming' mr tay, a some what gorilla-looking er...person(or so i think he's 1)came dashing out.within the blink of an eye, he managed to put on his red undies and a cape(suspected to be 1 of the sch hall's curtain).he was at the front line.behind him was his'mr tay fan club'.shouts of 'jia you' and wo men yong yuan zi chi ni' was heard as their hero made a beeline for the kitten.and out of a sudden a 'mr tay!wo ai ni!' was heard.everyone turned arnd onli to find celina shouting lyk a mad woman.

when we reached the drain the kitten was trapped in, superman turned into the hulk and pulled of the lid of the drain.(he is destroying public property...hello?)the hulk wanted to climb into the drain to save kitty but realises his butt is too big and transformed into hello kitty.maybe the cat saw its fren and came rushing to its hero.soon both kittys were out.hip hip hurray!!!when every1 was looking at the kitten, hello kitty turned into spiderman and spider-webbed away.

no one knew wad to do with kitty and tt was when another hero appeared. ms valerie tan! she voleentered to bring kitty home!!!yay... and every1 was safe and sound...

-end of report-
reported by:
valerie lim & celina chua channal news asia taipei

2006-10-12T03:22:00.000-07:00

HEADLINES: MATHS TEACHER SAVES POOR KITTY CAT!!

Maths teacher, mr gabriel tay saved a kitty cat who was found to be stuck in the drain near a construction site by (miss) elizabeth chew.
gabriel was leading the whole team of students, consisting of mostly girls around 10 and 2 boys who were very very manly.

Nevertheless, there were 2 girls and a boy who were shouting crazily behind the crowd. they were being so immatured according to mr gabriel tay. they were, miss kong liying, miss lim valerie, and mr celina chua. they were thinking, is he a maths teacher or is he a superman? in the end, he was proven to be both. he went to the place where the kitty was trapped and everyone started trying to lure the kitty out. only the 3 people were at the other drain meowing,woofing,oinking and mooing.

ALL OF A SUDDEN, the kitty appear and gave them a bad scare. just then, the superman pulled open the drain and climbed into it.he meowed a few times, calling the kitty to come out but to no avail.then, the kitty felt that gabriel was so big, there was no way it could runaway from him so it came out and allowed the superman to carry it outta the drain. just when gabriel loaded himself into the drain, the miss lim valerie and mr celina chua thought he was going to smash the kitty with his iron butt.

FORTUNATELY, he did not and saved the kitty. when the kitty was out, everyone was relieved and cheered for the wonderman. then he made his speech: "all of you are scaring the cat. imagine, it is so small and there are so many giants around it." after which, he said thank you and left the crime scene. just then, mr celina chua felt so scared because he was surrounded by giants everyday. he calmed down several minutes later. however, even after gabriel saved the kitty, miss valerie lim reminded us about a pointer. she said that our CME exam was just over and our MATHS teacher was spoiling public property.

CHILDREN who are out there, you may learn from this wonderman's moral courage but do not, i emphasize, try not to keep the damage of public property to its minimum when attempting to save such animals. after which, miss valerie tan brought the kitty home and named it GABRIELLE. how nice of her. if you would like to make a donation to contribute to the well being of the kitty, please contact miss valerie tan and she will kindly attend to your questions and regarding when you can visit GABRIELLE.

the media would like to encourage all to be as compassionate as all the pupils who helped in the rescue mission of GABRIELLE . THE ANIMALS JUST NEED SOME LOVE AND CARE.DO A KIND DEED BY TAKING IN THEM!!

-dashed reporter-

2006-10-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

i cant seem to say the same things.
HAH.
everything i used to believe in seemed to have turned to S-H-I-T.
no offence.
oh.i talk to myself.
i do especially when i walk home and during exams.
stupid but true.
i tink some ppl do that too.
nvm.

i just realised that i hate a characteristic that all girls possess.
the ability to feel.
OH DUH.i mean everyone has feelings.
i hate to see shows where the girls gets all emotional.
hate it.
simply hate it until..
nvm.
but in most shows, the girl is the one always suffering.
who to blame for their plight?
being so sad just because of a guy?
erm.no offence girls.
i tink they really have to blame themselves.
blame themselves for being so emotional.
but this only applies to SOME girls.
haha.
but i just cnt stand it.
hate it.
but i still can differentiate between emotional and romantic.
LOL.
ah.forget it.
hah.imagine if most of the guys are as emotional as the girls?
HAHA.what would happen?
nobody knows.
but the world would become a very cry-wail place.
BUT.
not saying being emotional is not good but.
i just feel so angry when the girls in the show suffer.
ANGRY?!
stupid right?
nvm.
p(fairytale happening in today's society)= 1/1000000 (:
possible but look at the values.

i am still me.
just that i cant say the same things anymore -.^

2006-10-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

today there was a toddler who started GAA-GAA-GOO-GOO-ing at me.
so weird.
she stuffed the chestnut in her mouth then drink water then want somemore chestnut.
then she spat out the chewed chestnut in her mouth, mixed with water.
i was just beside her at the bus interchange.
then she GGAA GAGA.GOO GOO.
she saw the mrt train then say RTEE. R-TEE.
supposed to be MRT.
at first i heard aunty.
LOL.calling the train aunty.

then there was this man who was the transit security.
a woman was shouting at him.
dunno what.
"you dont shout at me okay!!"
"i am not shouting. (in a calm tone)"
"why do you keep shouting at me? why must you shout at me in the first place?"
"okay, stop it. i am not shouting.(still as calm as ever)"
"you dont have to shout at me.i just need your name!!!"
"I DID NOT SHOUT AT YOU!!!! (finally exploding)"
then my bus came.
i mean it was obvious who was the bringal one shouting even though in the end the man exploded in fumes.
haiyo.he should have REN abit more.
then she complain also no use cos he din shout at all.

HERE COMES THE MOST IMPORTANT QUESTION OF THE DAY:

if one day ms low step into the class saying celina has been killed by an unknown masked murderer, how will you ppl react?
freak out?
laugh it out?
say its none of my business,anyway, i will meet her in heaven a few years later?
or just LENG4 zhu?
dazzed?
HAHA.

2006-10-04T01:44:00.000-07:00

i will shock SOMEONE with my effort.
i will.i must.

even if now i jolly well know that i am at the losing end, i cant bring myself to care about that touchy matter anymore.
anyway,i cant tamper with fate.
the situation is probably not worth "rescueing" anyway.
why let all my efforts go down the drain again?
its down halfway,must well let it go down all the way.
maybe this time its for real that i have given up.
being in a sandwitch is not nice.
i just go back to be what i am already am.
and do things that arent against my conscience.
if others dont give a damn to whether what they do, whether it pricks theor conscience then why should i care for them?
i really wonder how some people can continue to do things that pinches their conscience.
doesnt it hurt?
is it worth it??
PAINFUL?
sorry.its really painful for me.

2006-09-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

this is a crop from a skin i found that was super cute.

THIS WILL BE THE LAST POST FROM ME UNTIL THE HORROR PERIOD IS OVER(:

this is a little love poem i created!!
ENJOY!

IF YOU
if you smile, i know you will be smiling always.
if you cry, i know you will never cry again.
if you say you hate me, i know you did not mean it.
if you pretend nothing happened, i know that you are crying inside.
if you did'nt wait, i know you were tired.
if you feel the hurt, i know you cared for me.
if you leave so hurriedly, i know you walked out on me.
if you say you found a new one, i know i am happy for you.
BUT.
if you waitED, i know you will always be there for me.

celina-

PS: i did not write this for anyone.
it is just a little inspiration!!
for all lovers,admirers,all those who are being loved or hoping to be loved!!
SMILE.
feel that there is always people around you to care for you
BECAUSE, you are SPECIAL.

if only you knew.
the end of the tunnel is nearby.
just struggle for a few more weeks!! (or days)

2006-09-22T01:57:00.000-07:00

i dont know what have gooten over me but i just want to tell everyone this:
YOU ARE SPECIAL.
everyone is different and there are no 2 you-s.
thats why you are special.
no matter what happens, you will continue to be special in someone's eyes.
SO, be special by being yourself!!

2006-09-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

replies to tag.

james: never let me try
you never asked?! i baked 2 cake then the first one evryone dig until very erm. then the other one with zeyong and bong. i tink i will bake again(:
20 Sep 06, 01:53Gilda: AHHHHHHHHH!H!H!HH!H!H!H!H!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
20 Sep 06, 01:53Gilda: Celina, you are scaring me with the amount of food you are consuming.
REALLY? then i shall continue to eat more to scare you outta ur wits!! LOL. food is my life so i cnt possibly eat less XD you should try eating all the yummy food i ate too(:
19 Sep 06, 07:08huiting: OOH >.<
ooh.ya.
19 Sep 06, 02:47huiting: hey
18 Sep 06, 07:20huiting: yupyup >.<
18 Sep 06, 06:33ajmes: lol i betcha she stole the receipe from delifrance ><
huiting and ajames:NO.i did not steal.the recipe was from me.they stole it from me!!
17 Sep 06, 07:39huiting: haha, jkjk. looks pretty yummy though.
17 Sep 06, 07:39huiting: zz, mayb after eatin dat she spenta whole hr inside e toilet
17 Sep 06, 07:38huiting: yea
okay.so u tasted my cake.did u go toilet for 1 hr? do you need some pills? i doubt you did cos if not everyone who ate delifrance will have the runs too(:
17 Sep 06, 07:32zz: lol! celina, its ur homec prac? it looks yum,yum,yummy(:
you tried it.so izzit yummy? it looks yummy but does it taste yummy too? YES right?
16 Sep 06, 22:46peiling: i'm bored. how come celina got baby?
LOL. its called cassandra. JOKING X)

i tink today maths test i will fail like s-h-i-t. i will.trust me. my brain was BLANK.
wish me luck?

2006-09-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

THIS IS XUAN YU AND YING XIU!!

this is my lemon plus orange spoonge cake.

taste pretty weird though.

this is the egg i cooked.

blur.

but it is edible XD

2006-09-07T03:42:00.000-07:00

ytd i went to a thai restaurant and the food there was like YUMMY.
i ate thai style of fried rice and pineapple rice.
i was so hungry so i practically gobbled everything down.
then the best FOOD came.
tom yum soup.
it smell so nice but it was super spicy.
i drank 3 spoons of it and i could alr breathe fire.
but it was NICE XD
then i went to bugis and ate tacko balls.
HAHA.i just couldnt resist the temptation.
my mother din stop so why not?
shop shop shop and bought some shirts.
and i accidentally made a manekin the wig drop.
then i was so short i couldnt put it back.
so i jump jump jump then my aunt saw me jumping lyk a retard so she helped me out.
shortly after, i ate KFC.
crispy chicken X) yum.
(2 piece)
after that i managed to eat a zinger.
then drank 2 cups of mountain dew.
and not forgetting CHEESE FRIES!!
today was freaky.
i bought a goldfish without an eye.
HORRIBLE.
my sis chose the fishes then when i went home i realised the goldfish was eyeless.
my dad went to return it.
having an eyeless fish in the hse can cause bad dreams.

the tagboard was ripped off becos there was some stuff that u ppl are at risk of seeing.
bad for ur health so we ripped it off for the moment.
it is TRAUMATISING.
so be glad it is being ripped off.
i am getting hungry.
FOOD!!
arent u hungry??
i cnt log into my msn account.
GGRR.
frustrating.
should i get a new one??
maybe i should (:

2006-09-03T00:16:00.000-07:00

i totally enjoy tuesday tuition.
but am i too immatured or what?
everytimes teacher tells us something containing obsense stuff
i am the only one laughing.

some things she said:
#1: i have some students who are crazy over computer games and it reflects in their writing.
they write, the emergency exits should be blocked becos when there is a fire, and the person opens the door hoping to escape, they see not stairs but birds. and then a brick falls down from no where and the person gets killed. so i conclude that emergency exits shld be blocked.

#2: student B writes, this guy has some problems in his studies and he attempts suicide. just when he landed in the floor after jumping off the 15 storey building, a martian ship came down to earth and 2 aliens took him to mars and he lived happily ever after.

#3: this is how parents scare girls last tym. they say, if u kiss or hold a guys hand, u get pregant and if u go firther by going to bed with him, u die. then u will go to the 13storey of hell [or something lyk that] and ur breast will be sliced off ur body and u will be a breastless person.

#4: show u what my student bought for me for teacher's day. [her daughter screams: a BOOBY CUP] since he is so nice to buy me a cup with a woman's boobs sticking out of it, i will use it and it seriously reminds me of my younger days.

#5: a student when back to tell his mother. "my teacher says that SEX~IS GOOD~! and she also says that MASTURBATION~IS ALSO GOOD~ and it is perfectly alright to have SEX~!!"

#6: we should not stop children from watchin porn. if parents restrict their child from watching porn, they will say "NO! the more they dun let me watch, the more i will go onto the internet and watch!!" SO, parents should sit by the com with the child and watch porn together and explain to the child what is porn exactly about.

#7: DRAGONS do exist.i watched in national geographic that they found an ice cave. they found a soldier whose face was black.they thought it was becos of the cold but after experiments, they realised that it was not becos of the cold. the soldier had been charred. they dig further and found the baby dragon without a womb??!so researchers are sure that the mother must be nearby. then they found another ice cave and they found many more soldiers with black faces. then they found a MUMMY dragon!! its wingspan was almost the lenght of our classroom. YA. it was BIG. they found a full grown dragon.the dragons love to fly to the mountain top and chew flint.then their body produces alot of METHANE! and when the methane and flint come into contact they emit flames! that was how drags produce flames.

[that was my account of what she was saying.so read it as SHE(my tuition teacher) said it and not celina said it(: ]
JEEVERS.
i forgot what else.
this is the more SIGNIFICANT ones.
her tone is totally hilarious.
she talked about other obsense stuff and i always end up laughing while the others take it so seriously.
this tues is 4hrs of tuition.
AHH~
i love this song.
BORO BORO by arash.
believe it or not.
i am going to learn how to sing it XD

Dusi bo ashakata boda
adhaste to heli rasi boda
dramatoba chei tunicardinazdi
kamai na ia to

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
dige dige nemi honetina me
Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
dige dige nemi honetina me
(shala ei shala ei shala ei shala)
Dusi bo ashakata boda
adhaste to heli rasi boda
dramatoba chei tunicardi
delamazatora debi ne mi ha

Dusi bo ashakata boda
adhaste to heli rasi boda
dramatoba chei tunicardi
nazdi kamai naia to

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
dige dige nemi honetina me
(Instrumental)

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
dige dige nemi honetina me

Bora bora bora dela an toro toro ne mi ha
Bora bora dela anshaia tige tige tige ha
(mashabi!)

NICE SONG HUH?
XD

2006-08-31T08:02:00.000-07:00

WOO HOO!!
today i had an eating spree.
anyone jealous?
CELINA - the big eater ATE:
(from the afternoon to nite)
-long john silver ; 3 pieces of CHICKEN!! , fries, ice lemon tea.
-chocolate xD
-tako balls. [is tat how u spell it??!]
-hot dog bun
-fried rice
-almost half of a honey grazed chicken!!
-crackers
its not really a spree but i ate all of those stuff one after another.
HAHA.
glad that my stomach can digest the fiid fast.
i went to anderson primary with valerie lim.
call me a betrayer of NORTHLAND (my pri sch)
i got pri sch to go back dun want to go back go other ppl pri sch.
anyway its on the way to J8
must well go and SEE
very small.
very dark.
very crowded.
NO OFFENCE andersonions.
is that wat u anderson ppl call yourself?
i think so.
no one knew me and i pretended i was from the top class 6.7
all valerie's classmates were like.
huh.she from anderson meh?
my acting skills were super "superb"
then went to watch the devil wears prada.
NICE x)
wait.saw eliz and her grp of very chio friends.
all so pretty and matured.
we reached j8 at 1.30 then the show was at 4.15
took 45 min to eat and went window shopping.
everything that was edible was tempting me.
valerie was pulling me back.
if it wasnt for her
i would have ended up eating more yummy food.
but at least i bought chocolate from ntuc.
so unfair.
valerie saw many many of her classmates at j8
AND!!
celina only saw her pri 1 classmate.
maybe my classmates and i all have phueny eyes.
then we all cannot see each other.
WWAA.
today's teacher's day celebrations was funny.
entertaining.
i tink mr singh and mr ang looked most normal.
mr chia was pee~man.
bladder probs.
anyone has extra bladder for donation?
my mother is restricting me from eating.
she dun want me to eat too much.
why?
obvious question.
but i dun even care if i grow fat.
but i got exercise.
every wed still got PE.

oh boy.
someone assure me that things that i do dont have to be known to others.
as long as i know that it is right and that is what my character tells me to do.
SOMEONE please tell me
that everything
be it good or bad that i do
i need not let the whole world know
as long as i know that its what i SHOULD do
that's enough.
i need to be assured.
so insecure.
HEHAA.

whoever who stops me, CELINA CHUA bowl needle
from eating shall..
erm.
shall..turn into my favourite food!!
WUHAHA.
that's me.
the hungry one XD

2006-08-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

today a mouse crossed my path twice.
it ran out to take the 7month offerings.
then it ran back into the drain.
then i looked into the drain then it suddenly popped out.
SCARE ME.
had to make a detour.
but the mice was cute (:
oh little cutie mice.
BUT ot crossed my path 2 times.
RUDE little mouse
durian seller.
talk about it some time later XD

2006-08-18T05:55:00.000-07:00

haha...ytd i did smthing damn stupid la
i was vry piss when i come home frm sch
so i took the bubble and went outside to play
i was wearing p.e shorts and sch blouse
i went to my neighbour's plants and then blow bubbles at 1 pot
i was squatting down and blowing bubbles

THEN!!!tt dumb neighbor of mine came baq!
he is tis sec 3 guy
who is lyk damn short,look lyk a banana and walk lyk a stick insect
he saw me blowing bubbles at his plants then he gave me tt
"ay!u blow bubbles at my plant for wad" look.
i noe i cannot fake le cos he saw me poisoning his plants
then i gave him a
"bubbles help in plant growth.dun u noe tt" look
onli i was nt so sure he even gt the meaning

then i turn arnd and started blowing bubbles at my own plants
then tt dumb ass open the door
and did the most sickening thing
he went to the plant, touch it and then
make tt sticky sticky action wib his hands
i was lyk
"hello?i did tt to ur plants quite a few times le.
they still haven't die yet.'

after tt stupid broomstick went inside the hse
i decided to go and blow at his plant a few more tym
then i gt tis stupid idea and went to his window and blow
so it's lyk gt a lot of circle circle pattern there.
haha...so darn fun

ya la...this is how my embarrassing story goes
or smthing liddat

2006-08-17T07:33:00.000-07:00

sprained my ankle.
i tot got no steps alr then still got 3 steps.
then i fell to my "death"
and sat on the floor.
for lyk 5 secs.
lucky only liying saw.
SO DUMB.
tat fall made me land exactly on my butt.
MALU-ed.
my mum tot i was a guy from afar.
that is lyk way WOW.
MISSON ACCOMPLISHED!!
X)

2006-08-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

ytd was a strange day.
had cip at learning centre. OBVIOUSLY.
irritating ppl.
especially wee teck.
keep asking me how to do the english.
liying and limo standing behind him dun want to ask them.
purposely make me so frustrated.
tat zeyong.
so ERM.
ask him how to do pri5 maths qn he go use simultaneous equation.
the ans shld be correct but how to teach the pri5 boy?
then huh.he so engrossed in solving the qn then he "neglect" the malay boy.
then the young malay boy keep sucking that spray thingy.
i tot it was glue he was sucking.
then his sister die die oso refuse to open her mouth.
she do maths very interesting one.
anyhow choose ans then when i want to help her check
she quicky turn nxt page.
very "INTERESTING" right?
she dun wanna talk to anyone.
except favian.
she see him then start to smile.
OH BOY.
i give up on her man.
then i go play five stones.
the stones go up and nv come down.
can guess wat happen =.=
not because i threw backwards or sth.
then becos the malay girl got too much hw then 3 of us
stay baq for a while more just to help her.
then she anyhow just write ans.
must well ask her go home and anyhow fill in?
i got tuition lor.

then we saw cutely retard on the bus. 72 bus.
HAhhaha.
he is a kindergarden boy.
limo and i met him on the bus.
then we became frens.
so long never see him alr.
then he become so quiet X)
so unusual.
last tym everytime we see him he always shouting lyk mad one.
keep running around the top deck of the bus.
then in the mrt train he was a few cabins away
then he suddenly came running towards me.
then tell me abt ultraman and powerpuff girls.
say his bro want to marry someone in his shoe.
aft hearing the word shoe for a few times
i realise the word is not shoe,
its school.
OH JEEVERS.
then he keep telling me abt how powerful
all the characters in ultraman show are.
i wanted to tell him i was not interested.
then he started doing a "pole dance"
spinning around the poles.
then lie down on the mrt floor exposing his underwear >.<
everyone in the mrt cast a strange look at me lyk as though he was my bro.
then he say he want to be bloom's wife.
the one in ppg.
i was lyk.
erm. bloom is a girl.
then sAy teen titians the beast boy is him.
say he can turn into rat and bite robin.
then he started screaming OUCH and rolled on the floor.
GOSH.
i was traumatised for 10 mins.
then i got outta the mrt at yishun then he wave bye.
then evryone look stupidly at me again.
but he is cute and intelligent for his age.

tuition was WEIRD.
shan't elaborate X)

yupp.so ytd was sure a strange day.

2006-08-14T03:26:00.000-07:00

oh gosh.
i just remember something stupid.
i was seriously mistaken to be a china person
evne by singaporeans.
i mean in what way do i look lyk i am frm china?
maybe becos of my PHUENY eyes?
i mean it cnt be tat small.
can it?
almost 3 times by singaporean.
then ht father tot i was liying's sis.
OH MY GOSH.
how come i look lyk so many ppl?
ahhhhh!!!
I LOOK CHIN-NA.
i want to look singapore-ish.
then today got shan xi ppl come.
also frm china.
recently, we are so associated with ppl frm china.

the singapore-ish me.
not the CHIN-NA me.

2006-08-12T08:29:00.000-07:00

today follow huiting and CHIN-NA ppl go soka concert.
i so clumsy.
keep droppin stuff.
then the person behind keep helping me pick stuff
i drop bottle cap
pamplets. [izzit lyk tat spell? looks strange]
handphone.
lucky floor is soft.
then they started chanting some buddist stuff.
the china ppl keep giving me TAT look.
handphone keep vibrating
killed most of my sperms.
need to produce MORE.
then got some guy sing song sing until
no voice.
out of tune.
voice screeched.
all of us started laughin lyk stupid retards.
then the infront ppl started screaming.
throw light sticks.
HAHA.
not funny.
tmr china ppl flying off le.
HOHOHO.
merry xmas.
liquids not allowed.
no handphones.
no laptops.
lyk they have those on them
SORRY.
i am laming.
I AM SO FRUSTRATED.
SO ANGRY
SO IRRITATED.
THE STUPID THING IS THAT
I DUNO WAHT IS MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY.
I AM HORRIFIED.
TERRIFIED.
CRAZY.
PPIISSEEDD.
happy?
fortunate?
elated?
YES.
oh boy.
what am i talking about?

don't show me manners.
show those ppl who deserve respect manners.
PRIDE IS MONEY.
filthy.

2006-08-08T01:39:00.000-07:00

i see no point in persevering.
I GIVE UP.
life still goes on.
just that now i HAVE OFFICIALLY GIVEN UP.

2006-08-04T23:41:00.000-07:00

i hate hypocrites.
i love sarcasm.
hate pretenders.
love laughter.

i feel tired
i was hated for something that happen
but i could not help it.
its not within my control
you just don't understand.
blame me if u must
but at least give me a reason that make some sense.
you are just another one of them.
its not like i put you down or something.
forget it.

ytd angel's mother called.
the thin shanghai girl.
she talked to me and
i broke out into tears before i could say anything.
OH BROTHER.
she was really nice.
my mom got jealous.
she keep asking me what did she say.
she say i never cry for her lyk tat before.
JEEVERS.
angel's mother was really nice.

the ridiculous moment of waver.
moments that bind.

2006-08-01T17:19:00.001-07:00

oh boy.
the shanghai ppl have officially arrived.
bought give a name stuff for them
then they wanna buy for their frens too then my mom have to pay for them
i mean it cost lyk forty plus.
oh. forget it.
then dinner they choose super ex food.
i mean its just a simple dinner.
its not lyk as though they are eating in restaurant
nvm la.
they treat me well in shanghai too.
i shall be more forgiving and maganimous
oh gosh.
they are so daring and open la.
nvm i shall not complian anymore.
happiness is within my control.
(:

2006-08-01T17:19:00.000-07:00

2006-07-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

oh man.

road run was STRANGE.

WEIRD things happened.

my knee hurts to the brim.

I AM TORN APART.

2006-07-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

i took 30 mins to walk home when i could have taken 10 mins
something was simply bothering me.
i took one step and and paused for 2sec and took another and paused for another 2 sec.
tat was how i took 30 min to walk home
in addition.
i had tears in my eyes=(
okay. celina is strong but guys cry too.
DON"T THEY?
hey.limo cried too.
so i had no reason not to cry.

nothing stays the same forever.
when one is sad
he will look back at happy memories
hoping to find reassurance and consolation
but noe wat?
it just makes him feel worst.
cos when he tinks of those memories
it just make him feel the urge to go back to the old days.
just when everything is beginning to settle down and take the turn for the betta guess wat
it all has to come to an end.
every story has an ending no doubt.
happy days come to an end too huh.
good things end fast.
just awhile longer could make a whole world of difference.
i just want another second.minute.hour.day.week.month.year.decade.millennium.TIME.
if only time can stop.
if only.
everything is always IF ONLY.

darn.i just feel so lost and depressed.
like so kong xu.
like as though something is missing.
maybe something really is missing.
maybe.
who knows?

2006-07-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

this are some rilly valgur things i found
ahem ahem

may valerie live a long life

2006-07-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

ok...erm this are some vry valgur things i found...
ahem ahem

2006-07-15T02:07:00.000-07:00

okay.
the firey dragon has died down.
i am free again.
thanks to my knight in shining amour.
LIMO-bronze knight.
ahha. NOT FUNNY.
i have offically fallen sick.
cough.flu.headache.
i feel so weak and drowsy X(
monday is gb day.
i wonder if i will survive.
have to stand very long.
maybe i will faint half way.
sick sick sick sick.

darn that teacher of mine again.
re-pair us again.
nvm.
awww man.
nothing seem to be gg my way.

I AM NOT SCARED OF YOU!!
i have my sword and kungfu.
BEWARE.

2006-07-08T07:30:00.000-07:00

[oh.dun go HAKU. you haven said ur last words. u haven write your will yet. dun die first.give me all your money!!]
[this dragon is so nice to touch. just let me touch a while more and i will be satisfied!]
[omg.get tat fat hamster off my shoulders. it is so heavy. hammy.u shld go eat XANDO.]
[oh my. why is he holding my hands so tightly? let go pal. AND. dun look at me lyk tat!! i will get all blushy.]
OMG.
i cnt beliv i am having so much fun uploading pics.
ahha.
i am lyk so bored bored.
i cnt understand why girls cnt be the one to ask guys if they wanna stead.
i mean wats wrong?
okay.
tats wat GUYS think.
they have to be manly.
YES. manly.

[a friend is another I]

2006-07-07T06:29:00.000-07:00

[little bride]

WHOO.

[my neighbour totoro]

sorry.

i am just having a little fun.

i am getting BORED.

2006-07-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

my tuition teacher paired us up.
girl wif guy
obviously i was paired wif a girl la.
erm.
she said she was gg to turn us into an essay class.
then when our buddy is absent
we have to take down notes for them.
garhh.
hey but i was pretty lucky for the FIRST WEEK.
FIRST WEEK.
i got paired up wif a person i could get along with very well.
okay.
we were pretty immatured
we were lyk the only ones laughing at stupid jokes.
yupp.
then so sway.
teacher re-paired us the nxt week.
BOO..
REALLY BOO U NOE.
pissed.
i cnt get along wif my new partner.
its lyk every pair is the "she" take the initiative to ask the "male" wat are their views then my partner is a total opposite.
anyway.
i was so manly
so i did all the asking.
BOO HU huhu.
okay.
i am offically mirgating to PISS land.
i am alr a PR.

lao na bless you.
lao wee bless you
lao ne bless you(:
christian-cum-buddist.
no offence ppl.
take it easy okay?

2006-07-03T00:10:00.000-07:00

i and celina are now offically permanent citizens of piss land
we were pissed almost abt everything
we have migrated frm lala land to pissland
and are now living pissingly ever after.
haha...nw dere is tis crazy craze btween me and nah.
"lao na bless u"
haha...it is juz funny.
then tt stupid celina go arnd blessing everybody.
everybody is lyk so blessed now?
haha...

lao na bless u...

2006-06-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

i guess people dun stay the same forever huh.
maybe i expected too much.
i was so wrong.
as in even if they dun change in personality
they cnt possibly be the same at every moment.
every moment is a different story.
i hate it.
my sis totally pissed me.
watch ur words SIS!
i am in piss land.

they just change with time.

2006-06-23T22:37:00.000-07:00

i am so in love with this show.
ahh~
my neighbour totoro.
CUTE.
the mei.
the japanese voices super cute.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HcyIwnbC_4&mode=related&search=my%20neighbour%20totoro
click!!
the first part the song super boring but the ltr part super cute.
the young girl MEI!!
sorry.
i am mentally unsound.

2006-06-19T22:47:00.000-07:00

ytd we went kayaking.
my arm only hurts now.
AAHhh.
pain pain pain.
the kayaks at MOE water and sea sports centre very diff to control.
its easy to turn diff to go straight.
then when we kayakin to the sheares bridge the time
me and limo kept laughin and our kayaks went outta control
ahhh!! STERN RADDER!!! (at least tats how i spell it ^^")
tat is one good kungfu.
i doubt anyone noes wat i am saying.
i did a stern radder and my kayak went STRAIGHT into limo's kayak.
CRASH!!!
boom.
stern radder supposed to make u go straight.
i went straight...into her kayak.
nvm.
things are hard to explain (:
bin chao chao.
bin aw aw.
zuo tang.
i duno how to spell lah..
i love these words.
plus two more
LAME PIG!!
and.
STREN RADDER!!
cnt beliv mr rodrigues called me and limo twins!!
before that.
on the bus
a guy we din noe asked us
by any chance
are u two twins?
WATT!!
u mean i look lyk her?
height diff
hair diff.
ya.and so many diffs.
in which way do we look lyk twins??!!

i guess nth is falling into place.
i am being crushed.
crushed into bits and pieces.
where's my superglue?
there are so many things for me to be happy about
i just cnt bring myself to smile.
for once
smiling seems so difficult

i am not smiling
not now
not tmr.

2006-06-12T19:23:00.000-07:00

i nv felt so BETRAYED in my life before.
forget it.
why are ppl becoming lyk tis.
you!
i tot u were so close to me
bud i guess i was wrong.
u gained alot because of my absence.
becos i was'nt there at tat time.
u took advantage of the situation.
when i was around
u pretended to be siding wif me
please.
there is no need to do tat.
i hate to say tis bud why are u acting lyk a coward?
sorry.
i WAS super pissed.
now i am not so anymore.
i just want u to noe tat
i dun blame u for wat u hv done
i noe ppl do change
i dun expect u to stay tis way for the rest of ur life
bud can u change in a proper manner
without risking hurting anyone?
when u were down
i was there.
in case u forgot.
it was not once
it was most of the time.
when u hv become high up there
there is no DOWN for u anymore
u forget the ppl who treated u the best and the worst
u start sticking up with ppl u detested most last time.
u avoided ppl u enjoyed talking
how u treated me i no longer care
bud wat about ur other frens
are u gg to just let them rot
are u just gg to let them see u climb to fame and they are still in the pits?
friendship is a gift
in a friendship
it is not how much pride and money and time u hv given
its how much u are really willing to give
if u were the unwilling party in the beginning
i will pretend u nv existed.
i dun lyk a friendship where the other party is not happy with wat he/she is doing.
i just hope tat u appreciate wat ur OTHER FRENS have done for u
they hv done so much for u to be able to be hu u are today.
u dun hv to say tat u appreciate them
just noe it in ur heart.
if they are really ur frens
they will noe whether u rilly appreciated them or not
they noe u the best
u just did'nt noe
sadly.
SEEING A SMILE ON A FRENS FACE BRIGHTENS UP UR DAY
in case u didnt noe.
they were the ones who gave u unforgettable memories.
meaningful ones.
dun be such an ingrate.
at least say a thamk you to them before u leave their lives.
u may hv left physically
bud u hv not left ur fren's heart mentally cos ur frens heart is a gate u can nv leave once u enter cos frens will stay frens forever.
even aft u die
u may think u hv forgotten tis fren of yours
bud trust me
u haven
cos u cnt
DO A GOOD DEED
JUST OPEN UR MOUTH AND SAY U APPRECIATE THEM.
UR FRENS
PPL WHO GAVE YOU ALL THEY HAD JUST TO SEE YOU SMILE
BE IT WHETHER HE OR SHE IS A BEST OR GOOD FREN TO YOU
PLEASE.
JUST DO IT
BEFORE U LEAVE THEIR LIVES
AT LEAST SEE THEM SMILE for the last time...

frens will stay frens
till the last breath of
OUR LIFE.

2006-06-06T03:19:00.000-07:00

shanghai trip
i cried.
the day we left shanghai.
i din expect to cry bud i guess i did
the hosts were very kind.
very kind to us.
on the day i left
my first host din come cos she got class.
then her mother came.
ah yi say sth so nice.
she say she dui bu qi wo.
cos i din eat well cos i not used to the food.
i cried.
it wasnt her fault.
it really wasnt.
then she hugged me.
i cried even more.
ok. i din noe i was tat emotional.
then wei lao shi came and asked me not to cry.
then i started to cry cos ah yi hugged me again and say she cant bear to let us leave.
she say we were very nice gurls.
i wasnt.
i caused so much trouble for her.
yet she still treat me so well.
when i had cough
she bought medicine for me
then i couldnt eat watermelon
then she bought pears to stop the cough.
she fed me wif the medicine.
AAAHHHH.
she was so nice
she hand wash our clothes everyday.
as i am typing.
i am remembered of her kindness.
i am tearing.
why do such kind ppl exist in my life.
she was really nice.
i need tissue.

the food she cooked was diff from that of spore.
i wasnt quite used to it at first
she cracked her brains to cook food tat was to my taste.
breakfast.
she tried to get food tat suit my taste
she tried so hard.
i felt guilty
so i always tried to finish the food
bud i was not used to eating so much in the morning.
then once i ended up vomitting.
she was so nice
she may only have known me for a minute or two
yet she did so much for me
she may not be my mother bud i love her so much too.
she did so much for me.
more than wat she did for huiting cos i was the more troublesome one.
i am indebted to her.
how i wish i can pay her baq with hugs.
she brought us out every nite.
every morning.
i can tell that she is tired
yet she tries to put on a smile in front of us.
i noe she is trying to be the best host
she already is.
she really is.
i need more tissue

she was so nice so nice.
how can i ever repay her.
such ppl are getting lesser and lesser
she treats me well not becos she wants sth in return
and its not becos i am her relative or fren
we barely noe each other.
yet she is so nice
how i miss her.
she treated me so well.
i will be inhuman if i din cry
she brightens up my day

huiting.
dun u dare circulate tat picture of me wif that guy and my scared expression!!!
i was darn shit scared la.
i was taking the ride that will shoot you so high up and bring u down.
they force me to take de!
i tot will be very scary bud it wasnt tat bad aft all.
then we take the roller coaster.
it went two loops.
i closed my eyes.
then when i opened it
i was looking downwards.
it was super fast bud i wasnt tat scared
then the pirate ship
my leg kept shaking.
the pressure bah.
it went super high.
it was the most scary.
i tink
cos the rest still ok.

huiting very bad lor.
i explain the situation first
i was walking wif this guy at the back.
at the staricase
then huiting go say i and him ahem
then tat guy is the person my host like.
then my host joined in wif the teasing
cos i tink she dun want to make it too obvious.
she very wei nan lor.
then huiting kept using my hand and his hand to touch each other
iky.
then i tink my host very sad lor.
in the first place there was nth between us.
then she made a mountain outta a molehill
then she continued to do tat for a few days.
i could see the ahem look on my host face
wa liao.
huitng u din spare a tot for her izzit?
its not real somemore lor
shit tat guy too la.
she say i nei xiang
wa.
he don noe me.
limo always sae i talk too much
she wish to shut me up
then the way i wear my jacket he oso got opinion
cos i wear my jacket the other way round the front of the jacket at the baq
easier to take out mah
then he wear it the same way and ask me if it looks nice on him.
i was lyk erm.

huiting get a pic of me with this guy
the guy very attention seeking leh
the gurl beside me.
vicky
say he vry poor thing cos no one wants to bother bout him
then he tries to do alot of stuff to get attention
then the nxt day
he come to tell me tat he searched 3 dictionaries then find my chinese name the zhen the meaning.
he say he nv see my name the zhen before.
then he tell me the meaning of my name
LOL.
then on the last day.
the class gave us a present mah
i gt a bottle of stars.
then it was placed in a box
then he come and pestered me to open it
then he snatched it frm me and opened it without my permission
then he go explain to me the meaning of xin yun xing.
he is erm.
i dunno
bud he vry poor thing.
he needs frens too huh.
so i just let him be la.
then he said bye so i said bye then he smiled.
HAHA.
i felt i did a good deed la.
sorry.
i was crazy at tat time.

saying about the last day.
a guy kept pulling me to take photo.
he is the zi lian kuang.
he called himself bill gates last time
then he keep saying he very shuai
he ask me and huiting to take photo
then i hated taking them so i ran away then he ran and pulled me
really pull
me to take it with him and huiting.
then he scared i run away then he put his hand around me.
dun misunderstand.
tat is how the guys there treat gurls
so different frm how the guys here treat gurls.
the guys there just touch here touch there like no body's business.
then if they do the same in spore.
i tink they will be mistaken for a molester.
SAD!
bud he quite nice la.
he keep wanting to give up his seat in the computer lab.
becos we there so got not enuf seats mah.
quite totful la.
bud he too BHB

OMG.
why am i talking about china guys?!
the guys there more re4 qing2
than the gurls la.
so shocking.
=.-

ADVENTURE CAMP & kayaking
it was fun
we all very enthu la.
bud i nt quite so
cos i v.v.tired.
i come back from shanghai then the nxt day got 2 days of kayaking.
kayaking was ok bud tiring
i kayak until my arm muscles pain.
mr michealr keep saying i frown too much
then he keep askin me to smile
i so tired how to smile!!!
then in camp
every time i walk past mr R he will ask me wat happen to me
he keep asking me to smile.
not to frown
i TIRED!
then mr singh keep smiling at me
mayb he laughing at me.
bud gt anything to laugh meh?
then when we doing abseiling the time
mr singh ask me wat is my name
then he started guessing.
he guessed cherilyn
cheryl
ch....
ch...
he just nv guessed ce...
then mr R say C~
then mr singh still cannot guess.
mr R say i underwater mermaid.
then mr singh say
orh the confident one huh.
erm.
i wasnt even confident when i did the capsize drill la.
then mr singh say the flying fox thing too low to scare me
he say.
this one must scare abit.
must go 20 storey high
i was lyk erm. not necessary
then mr singh ask my name again
then he started laughin
cos he forget my name the nxt moment
then he say he can rmb mermaid betta than my name
then he say he call me mermaid
then i say vry girly.
then he call me merman.
then he and mr R started laughing.
then he smelt perfume
then he say its me who put the perfume
i stand there so long he nv smell perfume then how can it be me la
then he sniff over my head and say its me
i was lyk.
erm. i dun put perfume
then mr jackson ng was in charge of the flying fox.
i dun trust him
first he ask me to jump
then when i wanna jump he say i siao want to die
cos he haven put the duno wat thing yet
then he attached it to me
then he take out sth
then he ask me to jump then i nv jump
then he see i nv jump then he put it back on
then he say i can jump now
i duno want to jump not lor
later i die how.
then i say wat if i die halfway
then he took out his hp and ask me to record my last words
then when we go nature rumble he ask me if i caught any marine fish in there.
i was lyk erm.
marine fishes dun survive in muddy waters
u lamo.
then he ask me to catch mudskippers.
funny
then got tis laos scholar
he keep sayin i put perfume
wa.
i din la.
then he put the super strong insect repelent and ask me to smell lor.
it choked up my nose.
then campfire he wanted to hug me la
IMAGINE
he was so BIG
i was tis SHORT.
it was lyk a care bear huggin a ladybug.
i shunned la.
then the ZEYONG.
shit him
say a load of crap.
CHEW ZEYONG.
u die liao.
he keep shitting.
i was in the same grp as him.
oh.
so i noe one person in the grp.
he splash water on me aft he washed his plate.
and many bad stuff.
BOO HU HU man.
HAHAH.
i sound retarded.
I MUST SAY THIS.
CAMP FOOD ROCKS LYK SIAO.
i love it man.
i wont mind eating it for the rest of my life
seriously.
i still got alot to write bud i tired le.
i love the camp cheers too.
wulala.

i will be strong becos of u.

2006-05-26T07:19:00.000-07:00

tis blog is rotting. sry i'm craping.
seriously,i've became a load of crap after taking my report book.
haiah...sian, tmr till mon still gt church camp then after tt need get ready for estherfez.
then go kayaking then go adventure camp.hate the lot homework man.so freakin still need to do recording de lo.
too depressed by results le.
wan to go and dunno do wad le
no mood to continue.

buh bye.
ni de tong ku jiu shi wo de xing fu

2006-05-24T20:24:00.000-07:00

there are so many things i seriously dun understand
i wonder if i will understand it one day.
why must ppl change to become what the another person like?
as in why must they change their real character to suit someone else's taste?
i dun see why tis must be done
it is lyk betraying ur heart.
its lyk u become a person u dun wanna be.
i felt that i have made a terribly wrong decision.
i did.
why cnt i change?
cos i just wanna be the person i yearn to be.
then whi izzit that some ppl try so hard to be someone they dun wanna be.
they may end up getting wat they want bud they dun feel happy.
being urself is the most comfortable.
when i dun lyk sth
i just sy it and some times ppl dun really lyk or accept it
bud sorry
tis is seriously how i feel./
pardon me.
the breakfast portion is huge
i kept eating until i vomitted
the ppl in shanghai is diiferent.
haiya.
i am giving up on myself
i nv hated english this much
mayb i am really droppin.
droping until no one will see me anymore.
i dunno how much i get bud.
i noe if i did well or not.
dumb.
i am a super dumb idiot.
we tot the host some bad words.
she wanted to learn
such as bitch
bastard
slut
idiot
the F_ _ _ we din teach.
it was too vulgar.
i cnt see the blog bud i can post.
i cnt see the estherfez ting
sad
i wish i can play a part too.
just have to wish those taking part good luck.

pls...

2006-05-22T06:23:00.000-07:00

ha!!greeting earthlings..
i didn't noe shainghai ppl r so advanced!!(ok,i lame -.-)
why is everybody lyk tellin me i will miss celina?
i went to sch & the 1st thing they said was: "CELINA's GONE!!! do u miss her??
actually some things r nt ment to be said out loud or else it will lose it's true meaning.i didn't want to say i miss her cos i'm afraid if i really do i will miss her even more. (i can't believe i'm typin tis!! tis is freakin disgusting!! my comp is gg to rot!! Euuuuuwwww!)
i relly do hope she can survive there.as in i'm afraid she will start flirting wib 5 year olds and get into the police station?
ya...i noe shanghai ppl r nt so shuai but juz make do with it celina.

erm wad more can i say, i said the most disgusting stuff ever alreadi.

I will nt miss u (ok, at least nt so much)

2006-05-22T05:28:00.000-07:00

celina and huiting posting from shanghai.
the webpage te
akes years to load.
we waited lyk 5 min for the blogger thing to come out.
hope it doesnt take years to publish the post.
the host is very nice.
then later still need to write diary
sien.
lalala huiting here...
ahahh...nahna was like being zhui by a small boy..estimated 5yrs old...on a scooter!he kept tryin to bang nahna though...yup...e host also got aimed..me too..but not as many times as nah..
MISS YOU GUYS.
HOMESICK.
IS TIS WAT U PPL WANNA SEE?

2006-05-21T06:49:00.000-07:00

this shld be my last post before i flap away.
my dad just spoilt my day la.
he scolded me just now.
of course i cried la.
cos its lyk its my last day le then if tmr sth happen to me and he dun see me again then he will regret it!
as i was crying.
i shant get too emotional anw.
the first person i tot was..
someone.
i tink only one person will noe.
i tot i will not think of him
bud i guess i did.
i tot i din care cos.cos.cos.
i dunno.
bud the crying made me realised sth.
sad and pleasing.
at least the puzzle was finally solved.
sheesh.
valerie.
does it take u so much pain just to say it?
anw.
whether u say it or not
i will still remain the same.
i will miss all my frens.
erm.
whether it does include u or not.
i tink u noe XD
how much is ur PRIDE worth anw limo?
$100000000000?
bohuhu.
i shall be a wet blanket.
its only worth.
erm.
$10?
quite alot la.
bud still
ai ya. i v.v. freaked out.

i realsied how immatured i am
during tuition
the whole class remained silent when my teacher say that last tym
she used to call her frens pig
gay and all the crude stuff
and they called her baq too la.
then i started to laugh.
ah.
i duno wat i laughin for bud i just felt that it was funny.
then this person started to cough.
then i started to.
then my tuition teacher started to cough.
wulala.
it was lyk continuous.
we were given this topic to write about.
wat if u liked a person hu didnt like u?
i mean we could choose whether to write about it or not
bud the other title was way too hard.
i tot everyone else would choose the like a person topic bud no one did la.
then so i din choose it too.
anw.
i dun see why they dun wan to choose that one.
i dun wanna be the odd one out so i din choose it.

i am sad.
i am going to miss erm.
erm.
i am so lost.
haiya.
i wonder if anyone will really miss me from the bottom of their heart.
alrite.
i am just a naughty little imp.
i plan to sleep on the plane.
i wish the flight was 24hrs.
i love the plane!!
i dun wanna get down

lost.
confused.
sad.
if only things were really within our reach.
i was tinking.
all the fans of singers.
some are shuai
then the female fans will be crazy over him la.
then they yearn to be his gurlfren.
i mean hu wouldnt la
if they were crazy over a very attractive person of the opposite sex.
then they can only see their singer from below the stage.
they are so close to him bud not close enuf.
sometimes.
things are so close yet so far.
we can see it yet u cnt have it.
i mean it doesnt apply for only humans who yearns for another human.
i mean things too.
ai ya.
so close yet so far.
its within our sight.
nt within our touch?
oh no.
tt din come out rite.
i will be flying in 10hrs time.
my flight is at 8.15am
bud need to reach at 6.15
sheesh.
i am really leaving
cnt believe i am really leaving.
when i come baq the next day will be kayaking
then the nxt day will be adventure camp
then the nxt will be family chalet.
hope i wun peng.
i must survive.
XD

lost and saddened.

2006-05-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

Erms..long tym no blog
i doubt i can ever post 1 tt is as long as celina's (i dun read her post-they'r too long)
celina is leavin 4 shanghai in lyk 2 days tym and i think i desperately nid to clarify smthing.
I WILL NOT MISS CELINA CHUA!!!
she says she will bring a china himbo baq for me
(lookin forward) X)
maybe my life will be alot happier if she is gone.
no more nagging,beating,kick butting
no more having to observe her closely so tt i can see wad she's trying to express through her eyes (she lyks to do tt)
most IMPORTANTLY: i dun have to see my money fly cos i got to sustain her horrible eatin habits. yay!!
The BEST 2 weeks of my life is abt to begin!!!

but aniwae,she still has to come baq provided within tt 2 weeks she dosen't fall in love and get married there.
then,the misery of my life is abt to start. but i still have my china himbo( whoo!) haha....ani 1 of u hu wans a top grade himbo can contact celina!!haha...

tis post is dedicated mostly to celina, hope she will find out all the evil things she done to me!!

i'm prayin celina won't bob me--->
hees....bye for now

2006-05-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

recently.
many things happened and they rilly set me thinking
i finally understood.
life is nth bud a game
u either persevere and win/lose
OR
u just slack and let the sleeping dog lie.
and lose
in life
no one wants to lose out
they do not want others to be betta than them.
when someone who was weaker than them becomes more superior
they get all jealous and spiteful.
i once felt that way bud i realise that there is no meaning in such feelings.
i dun yearn bud i dun mind making things worthwhile.

yesterday.
i forgot to bring my ez-link card
then my dad forced me to run home to take.
cos he wanted me to learn my lesson
i was so furious bud as i was running
i felt that wat he did was right.
if i dun go back and take my stuff
i will assume tat watever i do wrong
someone will cover my tracks for me
usually when we are angry
we dun think straight
whenever things dun go well for us
we tend to find reasons for them
we usually blame
my dad scolded me for having such thoughts
cos i say its my grandma put my wallet sumwhere else.
actually its my fault
cos i din check
i had always ASSUMED it will be there ALWAYS
when we are angry
we usually dun tink and feel tat we have done sth wrong
bud aft we calm and cooled down
we noe tat sum things are actually our fault
we try to think and find other reasons so that we feel betta
knowing that its nt all our fault.
we jolly well noe tat its our fault
yet we always try to make ourselves feel betta.
then the moment i stepped into the sch
bee ee shouted the command to stand at attention
then i dropped my bag and started to sing the national anthem
a teacher was standing just beside me.
if i was late
shld'nt she be late too.
i felt relieved
too relieved
i was tinkin
since i survived that ordeal
i doubt the nxt one will come so fast
little did i expect it came the nxt day.
life is so unpredictable.

successful ppl usually say that nth is impossible.
they are able to say that becos they have already succeeded.
do u tink a beggar will be able to say that?
they will be able to
who cannot?
bud they do not have the confident to say it
becos he noes that no one will listen to him
ppl who are infuential
ppl who have power
i feel that wat they say is just facts that we normal ppl have yet to see.
the facts are all around us
bud it is just tt we are oblivious to them
tt is how ppl succeed.
i tink.
they say
poverty do not stop a child who yearns for knowledge from succeeding
i beg to differ
its lyk.
if u dun hv money
u cnt go to sch
even if u have to qualities
without a cert
who will even want to employ u?
they look for cert
ability nxt.
wat help and advantage will u be to them
last
in todays society
i find tat finding a true fren is no longer as easy as last tym when everyone is so innocent and they do not habour evil tots or motive.
we always try to win the favour of ppl who will be a stepping stone for us
we tend to like "frens" tat are advantages instead of burdens
bud why is tis so?
u mean a beggar cnt be ur fren
today
ppl have frens to succeed.
last tym
ppl have frens becos they rilly treasure their frens companionship.
i am so scared.
i am faced with tis world where ppl are so scary.
the safest fren is a fren who is straight forward
a fren who tells u if he doesnt lyk wat ure doing.
at least he does'nt hide his true feelings frm u.
at least u can be sure that he does not pretned to agree or disgree with u.
at least u noe for sure he is telling the truth.
at least u can tell.........
the scariest fren is someone who always sing praises about u
no matter whether u do good or BAD.
however
sum ppl are diff.
when they praise sumone
they rilly mean it
not becos they wanna pull strings.
tat is one rare fren.
i sound lyk as though i am condemning all my frens
nope.
hope u ppl dun feel lyk tat.
i am just saying im general.
more to the working and business world.

i am so scared. seriously