we're all just liars and suckers. hey i suck, you suck too~! -.-
woah woah woah, so vulgar. a moment of piss-ness.
another issue; i dont know if you mean it but i take it as you did, so dont feel sorry for anyone. jus stay far far away, or i'll become severly SEXIST and maybe a muron. moron sounds too.er.
bye;the severely sexist. the gender discrimination in me is resurfacing. do i blame myself; i dont.
WA LAU EH. not that i wanna start the post with such a negative attitude, but i just feel that nothing seem to be falling into place recently. i saw zhaozhi''s blog, set me thinking. so much so much. and its mentally taxing to keep thinking about it.
last year was the best year, but this year shouldnt be that bad, but it didnt start of well. in fact, it was rocky and rough. now, things are getting worst and those things i used to think were securely in place, they seem to have found the KEY to their chains, and slowly, they are unlocking themselves and escaping. slowly, bit by bit, bitterly, and SOURLY, and painfully. slow is the bitter and pain. pain seem to be the wrong word man. words are failing me.
damn, i keep telling myself its not that bad, but when i start comparing, i just cant help it but to sulk and regret nt treausing last year. 205 vs 304. damn, its not easy to adapt. its a huge jump. from such a nice class to a class where everyone's charcter is so different from mine. and i simply find it so hard to fit into the class spirit. just when everyone seem to be coping well, here i am just wallowing in self-pity. damn, stupid celina, wake up and stop your stupid imaginations from runnning severely wild. i tell myself i will try to contribute and give it some feelings, but just cant bring myself to do it when the time comes, its simply not easy.
people say its easy to adapt. but maybe its because i refuse to adapt; and i just give the excuse i cant adapt. so its me, the problem lies with my REFUSAL to accept and forget. yes yes yes, its my refusal. YES YES YES, ITS MY STUBBORNESS. YES YES YES, ITS MY OBSESSION. YES YES YES, ITS ME WHO HAS REMAINED THE SAME,WHEN EVERYONE ELSE IS CHANGING TO ADAPT. YES,ITS me.
yes, its me, i will try, but i still wanna say, i refuse, not because i cant. i simply reufse. until i find reasons for me to change and accept, my stand remains, i reufse, not because i cant.
aiyo, the class chalet giving me big headache. just cant find a date that suits all =.= hard ah.
uh oh. getting lil emotional here. on some days, i just feel like crying out loud. just weird lah; just not used to sharing my tears with people. its like, my heart sinks into a weird mode, then i start to go into a daze, then i just feel like breaking down, for whatever crap reason. i can stay in the dazed mode for several minutes, just being dazed. just going crazy if i dont see a pychiatist.
damn, nothing seem to be realleh going my way, even though they weres supposed to go this way. dammit, what am i spouting? uhh, ??? its just, WOA, so sudden, everything just pounces on me. then what, i am suppose to catch all the balls that ppl are throwing at me. all their burdens.
I AM NOT GOING TO RETALIATE ANYMORE; cause i see no point in doing so.
-CELINA- stands at a miserable height of 151cm SO FAR
-VALERIE- stands at a super tall height of 164cm. =.=
Valerie hates what Celina likes.(totally true)
valerie hates brown while celina loves brown(lyk poo)
Celina hates what Valerie likes.
valerie likes very colourful stuff while celina hates too much of it
valerie-HUGE twinny
celina-LITTLE twinny
OUR GOALS?!
-TWINNY BAG
-TWINNY SHIRT
-TWINNY BADGE
-TWINNY PENCILBOX
THATS SO LITTLE MAN. awwwww~
