WA LAU EH. not that i wanna start the post with such a negative attitude, but i just feel that nothing seem to be falling into place recently. i saw zhaozhi''s blog, set me thinking. so much so much. and its mentally taxing to keep thinking about it.
last year was the best year, but this year shouldnt be that bad, but it didnt start of well. in fact, it was rocky and rough. now, things are getting worst and those things i used to think were securely in place, they seem to have found the KEY to their chains, and slowly, they are unlocking themselves and escaping. slowly, bit by bit, bitterly, and SOURLY, and painfully. slow is the bitter and pain. pain seem to be the wrong word man. words are failing me.
damn, i keep telling myself its not that bad, but when i start comparing, i just cant help it but to sulk and regret nt treausing last year. 205 vs 304. damn, its not easy to adapt. its a huge jump. from such a nice class to a class where everyone's charcter is so different from mine. and i simply find it so hard to fit into the class spirit. just when everyone seem to be coping well, here i am just wallowing in self-pity. damn, stupid celina, wake up and stop your stupid imaginations from runnning severely wild. i tell myself i will try to contribute and give it some feelings, but just cant bring myself to do it when the time comes, its simply not easy.
people say its easy to adapt. but maybe its because i refuse to adapt; and i just give the excuse i cant adapt. so its me, the problem lies with my REFUSAL to accept and forget. yes yes yes, its my refusal. YES YES YES, ITS MY STUBBORNESS. YES YES YES, ITS MY OBSESSION. YES YES YES, ITS ME WHO HAS REMAINED THE SAME,WHEN EVERYONE ELSE IS CHANGING TO ADAPT. YES,ITS me.
yes, its me, i will try, but i still wanna say, i refuse, not because i cant. i simply reufse. until i find reasons for me to change and accept, my stand remains, i reufse, not because i cant.
-CELINA- stands at a miserable height of 151cm SO FAR
-VALERIE- stands at a super tall height of 164cm. =.=
Valerie hates what Celina likes.(totally true)
valerie hates brown while celina loves brown(lyk poo)
Celina hates what Valerie likes.
valerie likes very colourful stuff while celina hates too much of it
valerie-HUGE twinny
celina-LITTLE twinny
OUR GOALS?!
-TWINNY BAG
-TWINNY SHIRT
-TWINNY BADGE
-TWINNY PENCILBOX
THATS SO LITTLE MAN. awwwww~
